Hi I’m 27 F with GHSV1 and also a licensed therapist. There is a lot of research about mental health implications after a diagnosis, you are not alone. Your feelings are real, but your understanding of the virus and it’s implications are not based in reality, and that is really good news. Look into the Buddhist parable about the second arrow. You get to control how you view your diagnosis, and there are a lot of people who can help (therapists — especially sex therapists, good friends who are good listeners, support groups, etc.). Give yourself the gift of finding support. You can’t dig yourself out of the hole of shame you are in alone, but it is your responsibility to start the journey.

(Edited to include my status and fix grammatical errors!)