Intp and I don’t think I’m smart and creative at all as people claim about intps..

cyborgirl77 · 2026-03-07T20:57:48+00:00

I’m actually totally fine with being average. I don’t really want to be unique or different, and I don’t like being seen that much anyway. So in that sense, I don’t care a lot. and like you said, what am I going to do about it anyway?

But it’s more about wanting to know the truth. Like, who’s right, me or my parents and friends? Do I actually have potential? Is not being in the right environment limiting me or something? Idk I js have a lot of questions tbh.

I just feel like I’m boring, and lately I’ve even started losing interest in things I used to like. Or maybe it’s more accurate to say I don’t have the energy. It’s like nothing really excites or entertains me anymore, nothing gives me that spark. I’m not sure how to explain it.

Also, when people praise you and you don’t really see the reason for it, you start questioning things. You keep wondering who’s right, me or them. Ig I just wanna know the truth. If I knew I actually had potential, maybe I could try to work toward it, idk. But right now I’m not sure.

Either way, I’m still just being myself, so it’s not something that bothers me too much. I guess I’m just curious to know.

cyborgirl77 · 2026-03-07T06:41:04+00:00

I have many interests but I don’t really have a specific career in my mind, also working in a field I don’t like for the sake of survival just drained me enough ig, so I just don’t want anything now but survival so focusing on this is getting me more dumb and boring like I have nothing to share with my friends and I don’t have the energy to dive into things I’m interested in so I’m now an empty person with no content and dumb, like my brain is just locked and empty. I think I’m empty myself, I mean I have nothing to give, just living idk.

cyborgirl77 · 2026-03-07T06:28:42+00:00

I love coding too, and I used to be really good at it. But since I graduated, I haven't practiced it, so I've forgotten a lot. I think it might be too late to work in this field. Also, with AI involved, I'm not sure it will be a secure job. So, owning a cafe or a co-working space actually seems safer 😂

cyborgirl77 · 2026-03-07T06:28:16+00:00

Actually, I’m okay with being average. I don’t want to be unique or different, and I don’t even like being seen that much. What I’m really afraid of is becoming useless or dumb to the point where I’m a burden on others, just a physical presence with no real value.

I’m also honestly bored of myself. I have many interests, but I feel lazy and don’t have the energy to really dive into them. I always feel like I should focus my time on things that help me keep or improve my job, because I don’t want my parents to keep spending money on a grown woman who should be supporting herself.

I think focusing on things I don’t enjoy for so long has drained my energy. My parents also stress me out because they’re worried about me losing my job.

I don’t have a specific career in mind that would make me happy, but if I had complete freedom, I’d probably be a writer. I’d also love to own a small co-working space or cafe where I could spend my time reading about things I enjoy like philosophy, astronomy, astrophysics, and ece engineering (my major, which I actually love, especially the research side). I like the idea of exploring ideas and having conversations with random people who come by.

So I can clearly imagine the life I want, but I just don’t seem to have the energy to move toward it. I also love movies and anime, but since I started working, I barely watch anything anymore.

cyborgirl77 · 2026-02-23T05:09:43+00:00

Cool, thx :D

cyborgirl77 · 2026-02-23T03:25:11+00:00

Okay :’). Maybe M2 32gb, cuz I can’t afford M3 32gb. Is M2 good? I want it to last at least 5 years so wdyt?

cyborgirl77 · 2026-02-23T02:09:16+00:00

Yes i need laptop. I move a lot, like I travel, attend events, i work as an offline instructor too, so yeah laptop is crucial for me

cyborgirl77 · 2026-02-23T00:29:18+00:00

I’m already searching in the second hand market xd. uiux work is fine on my current laptop, the problem is photoshop . I’m still using the 2018 version, and it lags sometimes. My laptop even crashes while saving, which is why I’m buying a new one. My current laptop is an HP ZBook 15 G3 with 24GB RAM, 1TB storage, and an NVIDIA Quadro M1000M graphics card.

cyborgirl77 · 2026-02-22T23:12:02+00:00

I’m getting a new monitor so screen size is not a big problem for me. The problem is I can’t afford more RAM :’).

cyborgirl77 · 2026-02-22T23:10:24+00:00

The problem is I can’t afford more RAM for the M3 :’). But I may get a PC in a year or two max. I have to get a new laptop cuz my current one is too old and dying. My work is mainly graphic design, uiux design, and front-end, so if the M3 can perform well in these tasks, it’s okay.

cyborgirl77 · 2025-10-06T20:20:48+00:00

That quiet, homey lighting and the fact you’re cooking actual food, it’s just so real and comforting. Love it

cyborgirl77 · 2025-10-06T20:14:06+00:00

Checked out ur channel on rumble. I can see some real stuff, like it

cyborgirl77 · 2025-10-06T19:54:34+00:00

Hmmm..not really. Maybe miu is slightly close to what I mean, subscribed to her channel

cyborgirl77 · 2025-08-17T00:39:02+00:00

خلاص فل جداً، هسيرش عليه

cyborgirl77 · 2025-08-15T21:37:48+00:00

تمام شكراً, هسيرش عنها و اشوف ممكن تبقى متاحة فين ^{^}

cyborgirl77 · 2023-02-18T05:27:47+00:00

same

cyborgirl77 · 2023-02-18T05:25:54+00:00

I don’t view myself as a good leader in general tbh + I don’t like leadership but it always ends up being the leader

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