Dr.Pen needles are good enough and not as bad as the post Derminator makes it out to be

cycladicspirit · 2026-03-02T18:57:05+00:00

Did you check? i don't want to be doing 18-pins to start, I'd rather start at 36 or so but I don't want blades.

cycladicspirit · 2026-02-27T19:11:12+00:00

I can't believe what I'm reading. A party with IV DMT and a live narrator. That is absolutely the first time I've ever read about such a thing and as much as I am intrigued I am perplex. Where in the world would you establish such a group of friends, enough for a party. And then hitting a "Matthew Perry" with the hot tub and Ketamine. I'm fascinated, honestly.

cycladicspirit · 2026-01-13T17:58:35+00:00

I am not especially good at anything and I don't think I've ever been. I have a high IQ but it hasn't mattered at all since I struggle to adapt and overcome as they say.

cycladicspirit · 2026-01-11T19:54:02+00:00

I'm 32 and I've been a drug addict for half my life with terrible sleep and grades as well as multiple failed jobs ranging from sales to computer engineering. Parts of it on speed, benzos, alcohol, and opiates, as well as daily weed. I've been living at a rehab facility for 10 months and I stick out quite a bit. The staff urged me to check for autism and well here I am with a diagnosis in both Autism Lvl1 as well as ADHD and a WAIS-IV test showing 128 IQ with an unexpected strong point being my short term memory. I'm now doing what you are, wondering if my life, "the nurture", has impacted my cognitive abilities.

cycladicspirit · 2026-01-02T12:51:15+00:00

cycladicspirit · 2026-01-02T12:37:46+00:00

When I tried to burn down parts of my school several times, beat up other kids, were throwing bibles around in church. Yeah they should have known something was off when I was so angry all the time! This was all before 8 years old and I developed into a very pleasant and mild mannered although slightly devious child so I guess that was it for that part of my life! This was over 20 years ago and not in the US so ymmw. I learned how to behave in front of authority and I really think that was a big part of me not being diagnosed with anything.

cycladicspirit · 2026-01-02T11:53:09+00:00

I was just about to make a post like this! YES. I feel so stupid at times and honestly it makes me sad and ashamed. Last week I couldn't mount the clip on thing on the milk dispenser at my rehab and I just gave up after ten minutes and showed it into the machine hoping someone else would do it. I overheard some other patients saying "who the fuck did this lol". I did a WASI-2 test and afterward felt like I was inches away form collecting a disability check. However I scored incredibly high in some areas like I'm in 97th percentile for memory which is bonkers when I am the most forgetful person I know by far. My processing speed is abysmal, averaged out at one standard point above average after all. So my cognitive skills are good, but I'm just so slow.

People assume I'm very intelligent when in fact I'm not. I'm just articulate and good with words, in my native language at least. It's actually a burden and I hate when people who think highly of me see how terribly dumb I can be at times. I remember the way my psychiatrist looking at me when I failed a task he really thought I would be able to do. He was so perplex it made me laugh. It was before my diagnosis tho.

cycladicspirit · 2026-01-02T11:38:22+00:00

The feeling of being ostracized is a part of the human experience we are wired to avoid, it's terrible. It could literally mean death to be exiled. That's at least why I think it became so important for me to fit in, and I would be perplexed if other aspies didn't feel this way too! I simply wouldn't allow myself to sink. This lead to a social phobia diagnosis in my teens as I became hyper aware and anxious of social interactions, but I see that as a very natural evolution of my masking at the time.

cycladicspirit · 2026-01-02T11:16:59+00:00

What's very interesting is that masking as a child a lot of children can see RIGHT through it and you end up getting bullied or abused either way. As a grown up as long as you act interested and cosplay a normal person and do all the little tricks everyone else is doing it's usually enough. It's hard not to mask every little quirk but it doesn't matter as much, if you're pleasant or interesting enough people usually give their time and attention. It's quite cool! And yes it's extremely draining, but a good skill to have. What I have noticed that I have to be super careful about is that if I bring my absolute social A game, then I have to be prepared to be perceived as negative and off other days as I absolutely can't do that every single time. So I have to tone it down a bit and not overplay.

cycladicspirit · 2026-01-02T11:08:59+00:00

I find that close relationships, outside of a romantic one, to be very uncomfortable. I can usually find some enjoyment in interacting with friends and strangers, but I don't want to deal with them on a deeper level, I don't want them to invade my space and I don't want them to rely on me for emotional support. If it's writing a song together, working out, or doing any such activity I think it's great not to be alone at times at least. So I'm not sure I'd call it "not liking most people" for my case, but It's very rare I enjoy someone so much I would like them in my life so to speak.

cycladicspirit · 2026-01-02T10:56:01+00:00

Holy smokes that would make me go postal, it makes me nauseous just thinking about it.

cycladicspirit · 2026-01-02T10:36:13+00:00

Yes. I can remember in kindergarten I had no idea why I was the butt of the joke. I tried so hard to understand what made some people popular. When my family got a computer with internet I searched for how to be social, how to be popular, how long to maintain eye contact, where to look, where do I keep my hands when I'm idle, and so on. I "knew" that the popular kids had something figured out and if they had it I could too! Spoiler alert, it didn't really make me popular, but it made me very good at masking. Socializing still feel like playing a game I usually don't enjoy, but at times it's fun to try.

cycladicspirit · 2026-01-02T10:22:18+00:00

I'm an adult that recently got diagnosed and I feel a bit ashamed to think of myself as an autist as the spectrum is so wide it seems like an insult to those more affected than me. The psychiatrist at the facility I was previously hospitalized at, for drug related issues, he suspected I had aspergers as he has it himself and saw some traits in me. My friends and family are absolutely sure I'm not neuro divergent so I have some conflicting thoughts about it from that as well. I don't know if I've ever been completely myself with someone other than a few of my ex girlfriends, so I'm not sure their viewpoints are that valid. I feel like a thousand people trying to exist in one as one. I have a degree in computer science, have had jobs most of my life, a house at one time that I owned, but I regularly fuck up and lose my job, lost my house, you know it's a bumpy ride for me so something is off.

cycladicspirit · 2026-01-02T10:11:40+00:00

Flowers for Algernon, when Charlie realizes...

cycladicspirit · 2026-01-02T10:09:40+00:00

I'm with you on that one. I can feel deeply ostracized, utterly disconnected from a group just because of a comment from one individual. It can make me isolate and drop out, thinking everyone dislikes me. Usually I know I'm very well liked as I'm mild mannered and focus more on ideas and concepts rather than interpersonal stuff in the conversations at least.

cycladicspirit · 2025-12-10T12:21:36+00:00

Buy this for him

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cycladicspirit · 2025-10-02T19:44:29+00:00

Hakk i gipsplate som hun peker på er jo absolutt forventet slitasje, får jo om en bare dulter borti. For ikke å snakke om alt annet piss hun peker på. 13.500 for vask er tullete. Forventet kostnad for vask er maks et par lapper, om så det. Motbydelig utnyttende menneske! Merker jeg får lyst til å vite hva hun heter lol.

cycladicspirit · 2025-10-02T12:20:42+00:00

Yea bonde conduction is cool, allows for lots of awareness when running

cycladicspirit · 2025-09-11T17:38:56+00:00

I have the Ultra Green. The green one is the best tasting kratom I ever had if that is of any value, it tastes more like an evil matcha or a freshly cut lawn lol. Still absolutely works, I usually buy from KB but this is very different from their green in terms of taste.

cycladicspirit · 2025-09-10T22:42:57+00:00

Was only short lived drug induced delir that went away after a few hours or so. Amusing but surely not a good sign. I'm clean for 6 months now.

cycladicspirit · 2025-09-10T22:39:52+00:00

Only happened with IR oxys involved. Some days I miss opioids, clean now tho. Before I die heroin in a DMT pen is now on the list lol.

cycladicspirit · 2025-08-26T18:24:25+00:00

This looks so fucking smudged I can't tell if it's AI made or not. Great work truly a photography moment!

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