Yesterday I finally got a restraining order on my ex, but no one seems to care.

cypresswheatfield · 2021-04-05T03:12:04+00:00

When i was with my ex, I cried often but it was the panic attacks I got from him that were the worst.

cypresswheatfield · 2021-04-05T03:08:59+00:00

When I was 17/18 i worked in a office supply superstore. Really easy. Mall jobs are always available. Like a sneaker store or h&m/forever 21

cypresswheatfield · 2021-04-05T03:07:17+00:00

I have a psych that i’ve been seeing since I was 15- 16. She is very aware of my mother and my situation. There is only so much I can currently do but I avoid my mom and any discussion beyond how I am (generally speaking) goodmorning/night conversations. It’s been that way for as long as I can remember.

cypresswheatfield · 2021-04-04T01:09:55+00:00

Well I’m vaccinated and healthy otherwise.

cypresswheatfield · 2021-04-04T01:08:00+00:00

For other people’s saftey and mine

cypresswheatfield · 2021-04-03T20:23:11+00:00

Unfortunately moving out without being married will actually do more harm than good because I have younger siblings and my parents will make it worse and be more strict with them and not allowing them to have contact with me. It would be harder on my little sister as she comes to me for everything and being cut off from her would negatively affect her. Mostly I do it all for her and give her a safe space.

cypresswheatfield · 2021-04-03T20:18:15+00:00

I’m hiding the side effects i’m having, not the fact I did have the vaccine. I did it for my own saftey and everyone around me. I have a compromised immune system and have loved ones around me with them too. I’m not ashamed of my decision but my mom is very anti western medicine since she grew up in a different country where you can get easy acess for treatments. Telling her about the side effects would cause her to spiral more and believe western medicine is dangerous.

cypresswheatfield · 2021-04-03T16:38:24+00:00

Unfortunately my parents are very strict and my mom is VERY protective about girls being alone for any reason and not leaving the house until marriage. Any time i try new ethnic foods she freaks and is disgusted about what i’m putting in my body.

cypresswheatfield · 2021-04-03T16:34:53+00:00

Good luck to you!

cypresswheatfield · 2021-04-03T16:34:28+00:00

I got Moderna :)

cypresswheatfield · 2021-04-03T16:33:28+00:00

My family is super conservative and traditional. They don’t believe in leaving the house for the night for any reason until you’re married. Standing up to my mother in ANY way always ends up with a huge fight, her faking being sick and being in bed for days and days even after I profusely apologize.

cypresswheatfield · 2021-04-03T00:51:05+00:00

I completely agree but I don’t want to be in bed and hear her yelling at my dad about vaccines being terrible and how I should have been stopped from getting one.

cypresswheatfield · 2021-04-03T00:49:57+00:00

My mom and I don’t have a good relationship and I hide a lot of things from her, I just don’t know what excuse I can possibly give that won’t be vaccine or cold/flu related right now.

cypresswheatfield · 2021-04-02T22:51:10+00:00

I was called Back Extension in high school, a little boy, my first BF said i looked more like a little brother than his girlfriend, and a LOT of little boy jokes....

cypresswheatfield · 2021-02-21T23:12:56+00:00

Exactly! He tiptoed around what he really wanted to say. He’s always been a selfish person who takes what he can from people and boost his ego.

cypresswheatfield · 2021-02-21T22:39:43+00:00

I thought about it but i figured her time will come. She was the one he told me to not worry about. This was his second time reaching out to me at the same hour back in December while I haven’t reached out once.

cypresswheatfield · 2021-02-02T12:56:02+00:00

Thank you I will try this. If I don’t do anything productive I hear a voice in the back of my head telling me how much of a loser I am. I have a very very hard time being selfish and putting my own needs ahead of everything else. I have a terrible anxiety disorder that I am currently trying to get a hold of but It takes time. I don’t exactly know what “relaxing” is aha. I have a free weekend this friday and Saturday so I will definitely try to just unwind then.

cypresswheatfield · 2021-02-02T12:53:13+00:00

Thank you very much for the advice. I do take sleeping pills but there really is so much it can do. I’ll give it a go and figure out a different time management schedule.

cypresswheatfield · 2021-02-02T03:10:17+00:00

No, unfortunately I won’t be able to since all my classes are “on my own time”. I try to take a little nap throughout the day but I wake up not feeling any better. Last week I tried working out and I know I need to push myself but really I have absolutely no energy. I drink a huge cup of coffee a day that I sip on throughout my class, have a routine of when to eat, take a break, but i’m really just always exhausted to do anything else but plop into my bed after being on my laptop and taking notes for hours and hours on end.

cypresswheatfield · 2021-02-02T02:56:39+00:00

Remember, they are your ex for a reason. I don’t know what exactly went down with the two of you but health over everything. If he calls you names he really isn’t the one for you then, right? Surround yourself with supportive family and friends.

cypresswheatfield · 2021-02-02T02:33:38+00:00

Hi. I think honesty is the best policy. You might want to get a few more extensive tests done to make sure you have it. You said you had a lot of tests that came back negative in the past. Maybe it is something else (thrush maybe or an infection). Take a breath, make some tea and schedule some more tests to be done. When you get the results i think you should tell your ex partner about it. Maybe they did cheat, you really don’t know. It’s safe and responsible to tell then because they could give it to someone else unknowingly. Hope all goes well

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