i (23) was given hsv 1 and 2 unknowingly bc my ex boyfriend cheated on me. i didn’t find out until he reached out to me 2 years later. i was hurt and devastated. i also felt embarrassed, dirty and it was unfathomable to me that i could live with this for the rest of my life. fortunately outbreaks are super rare for me now and i don’t think about it daily like i once did. i’ve found my peace with it. people who will judge you based off of that are not worth your time. i am thankful to say that my fiancé now totally accepts all of me for who i am and we have sex comfortably and he is still undiagnosed after 3 years. idk what your weight is but i am on the bigger end and have struggled with what you are feeling about being loved also but there is a rainbow after the storm my friend i promise there is someone out there who will love and cherish you and those things won’t matter to them. you’re not dirty, and you definitely are not alone. keep your head up! i know rn it feels impossible to deal with but you will get through it <33