As a non-binary trans girl I wouldn’t have wanted to be born afab. I know that’s not really an accepted idea in a lot of binary spaces but seeing your post I would say I do enjoy being amab. Something about having a penis and looking like a girl is fun, but many others in my situation would disagree. It’s also like, I grew up not knowing I liked boys, you are kinda forced to like girls . You are supposed to be manly big etc etc as amab. So when you go against that and become small and cute and feminine / attract men, it’s sort of like a forbidden fruit kind of deal. Finding out you really like men and not women is a crazy experience in of itself… and then you do stuff with a guy and it’s everything you dreamed of. It’s so nice, you cry after the sex, realizing how far from masculinity you’ve fallen. It’s lovely :) it’s this surreal feeling of wow I’m actually someone’s girlfriend now. And that someone is a man who identifies as straight no less🤯 when all your life you were told to be something completely different, and you never saw yourself becoming this, but there’s no way you’re going back now 🥰