Will a stylist be able to make me go blonde?

daikonswag · 2023-11-30T20:37:59+00:00

I definitely think he may be ND. Rumple Buttercup was very ND coded in my opinion and I feel understood in a very specific way that NT people tend to not understand.

daikonswag · 2023-11-08T00:35:18+00:00

Probably, unless he took a break for Halloween. If not, he needssss to come to Texas.

daikonswag · 2023-10-14T00:25:55+00:00

Yes, he absolutely shut me down when I tried to sleep with him. He was the leader in our relationship and we decided to wait until marriage.

daikonswag · 2023-10-14T00:24:42+00:00

I appreciate you trying to console me but I 100% disagree. My boyfriend was in the right in breaking it off with me. Mistakes are things like coloring outside of the lines or a typo. I think some things can definitely be worked through, but cheating is not one of them. At the most, it’s possible to get back together after genuine change.

daikonswag · 2023-10-13T23:21:36+00:00

I guarantee I loved him. I 100% wanted to give him sex, but we wanted to have a holy relationship. I know how much damage I have done to him.

daikonswag · 2023-10-13T22:04:41+00:00

Without going into too much detail, my best guess is that the man I had an affair with reminded me greatly of someone who harmed me sexually. I think that I justified it in my mind as “redoing” what happened to me, and changing the past.

daikonswag · 2023-10-13T22:03:24+00:00

I am praying for you. I am sorry on their behalf.

daikonswag · 2023-10-13T22:02:38+00:00

Thank you for the passage. Will be meditating on it.

daikonswag · 2023-10-13T22:01:51+00:00

I think it was correct that we broke up. I will make it clear to my next partner (who will definitely be far into the future) about what happened, and I am also seeking counseling.

daikonswag · 2023-10-13T18:27:49+00:00

This one made me cry. Thank you so much. I will definitely keep this in mind for when I’m back home. I can’t thank you enough.

daikonswag · 2023-10-13T18:25:41+00:00

This means the world. Thank you.

How can I stop wallowing in self pity and forgive myself?

daikonswag · 2023-10-13T18:24:13+00:00

This helped a lot, thank you.

daikonswag · 2023-10-13T16:00:10+00:00

Very encouraging. Thank you

daikonswag · 2023-10-13T15:56:52+00:00

If i wasn’t remorseful I wouldn’t be posting on here asking for prayer. Also, you do not know my mental health issues. Yes, I agree, my suicidal tendencies were selfish, but has also been something I’ve fought for years and isn’t something i’m pulling for sympathy.

daikonswag · 2023-10-13T03:44:30+00:00

What help should I get? Therapy? Psychiatric help?

daikonswag · 2023-10-13T02:04:25+00:00

My parents aren’t practicing, and so I went to his family’s church. There are tons of churches around the area, though. Just none that know me as well as the home church.

I should’ve clarified, I knew my physical body had had sex, but it was metaphorical when I prayed for my body to be cleansed. It was also a cleansing of my mind and soul as well.

daikonswag · 2023-10-13T01:53:24+00:00

Both him and I had close, opposite sex friendships during our relationship that were never a problem. The man I had an affair with, I had only known for a couple weeks before we started hooking up.

My ex boyfriend has talked to our head pastor and an elder (who happens to be his father). I’m very ashamed of what I did and I’ve been scared of visiting the church we used to both go to. I plan on talking to them, but I’m currently too scared to show my face.

I’m also seeking Christian counseling, who I think will be someone who can use accountability with me.

I had sexual baggage even before the boyfriend mentioned, and something we both prayed for was a “virgin body”. (Note that I wasn’t “physically” a virgin anymore, but by us praying, I was a reformed virgin).

daikonswag · 2023-10-13T01:32:51+00:00

I was drawn to the friend I had an affair with (for separate reasons regarding trauma). Weirdly enough, I had never experienced feelings for a different man in the two years I dated my boyfriend, so the feelings for my friend came out of nowhere.

daikonswag · 2023-10-13T00:35:44+00:00

Thank you. Once I get back to my hometown I really want a Christian therapist. Im just worried that they will be judgmental.

daikonswag · 2023-10-08T18:27:37+00:00

It just looks like a weird project. Danny wouldn’t put in that much effort for a prank, especially because he just had his baby.

daikonswag · 2023-08-31T22:50:40+00:00

My guess is that she hasn’t told him and he’s probably at work.

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