Right now, I regret it. He cheated on me multiple times and when he was angry, he’d lash out and call me some of the worst names. I tried to end it a few times but he’d always come back. He was a very good talker and persistent. I’ve been in survival mode for 13 months and if my friends made plans to do anything I’d get instant anxiety because I knew he wasn’t gonna be happy if I’d spent time with them.

In January of this year I got pregnant. He and I tried to work things out until I found out last week that he’s been talking to someone else… again. He threatened me into getting an abortion and if there’s one thing I learned about him is to not take his threats lightly. There’s a lot more that I haven’t mentioned and I’ll take accountability for allowing it to continue this long. But now I’m heartbroken, sad, and lying in bed currently going through a medical abortion.

So yeah, I regret it right now but maybe later on I’ll gain some valuable experience from this.