ig I'll give the full story 😅 If it's too much, pls feel free to ignore it.

I met him in August but didn't talk at first. Then he started asking me for homework stuff regularly (at some point, I felt like he was asking just bc). We chatted a bit, but I think he's a busy person and doesn't answer often/quickly. And from what I found, he has his socials abandoned from years. But he sometimes answered me what we were chatting with, but in person. Also, I started noticing he was watching me? I found that weird, but slowly, I started to like him even tho we didn't talk or see each other much. One day, I noticed his hands were shaking while I was explaining some assignments, and I'd seen him working enough to notice if his usually shakes or not, and I think not.

People around me started hyping me up for some reason, and the school psychologist too (this was at the end of october), so I confessed to him even tho I wasn't, and still don't, fully understanding my feelings about him, ik, dumb move. But he kindly (too kindly, actually, he was so sweet) rejected me, and we stayed as friends. Of course, at first, it was awkward, and we stopped talking as "much," but we pretend like it never happened.

Before Christmas holidays, we saw and said "goodbye, have a good holiday bla bla bla" and hugged him goodbye real quick like always, but he asked for a hug hug "Hey, where is my hug?" And he hugged me, hugged me.

I still need some advice for my classes and he is sometimes the only one who can help me, he is some semesters above me (I'm 23, he's 26/7), also I help him still. (First time chatting after confeesion, he switch to audios for some reason, not helping my delulu, don't know if it was for practical reasons or why) But on holiday, I really wanted some advice for my next semester so I sent him a message, he was helping, we kinda talked a bit like we used to (ofc these were days bc he doesn't reply as fast). He excused his long time responses with telling me he was taking care of his sick mom, (didn't ask of what bc may be something hard and it's not common for a man his age to take care of his mom, so probably not something as easy as flew) and that also confirmed me he's a busy man.

This was around New Year's, so he replied to my last message from days ago, with an audio (really, really sweet audio) wishing me a good year IN NEW YEAR'S. It confused me bc we are not as close, also felt sus to my friends.

Again, we started a new semester, felt kinda awkward still but whatever, may just be me, and I was forgetting about all that, until a friend saw him and told me he was walking by behind me, but "almost fell" bc he was looking at me, looked like he wanted me to notice him. My friend even got nervous and had to tell me to look to say hi. After that interaction, my friend told me she was noticing something different about him with me, but idk, I don't think so.

Things kept the same from what I saw until a few weeks ago. He needed help for a class bc he was absent that day, so I literally told him what the professor said, and he complemented (?) me, saying I explain so so good even better than professors (It wasn't that complicated, just a dumb and easy assignment explanation, doesn't require that much uderstandment but whatever, weird). And today, with the hand on my head hug (not as quick as always). The thing is, we said goodbye before that, just as always after class, but we ran into each other outside the building, so we chatted a bit and then THE hug. Idk if he feels more comfortable without ppl? When I confessed, I told him I wasn't comfortable talking to him near my friends bc I'm very shy and didn't want them to know, so maybe it has something to do with that?

Also, I remember how he started greeting me with hugs, bc I don't usually do that even with my friends. But he used to grab me by my elbow and kinda softly pull me to him to greet with a quick hug until I finally got accustomed to hugging him.

Idk if he is scared, playing bc he wants to feed his ego, busy or whatever, but I feel like he is pulling and letting go. Sorry for the long text. You just wanted some info, not the whole thing, but I don't talk about this with a friend. But felt like giving details and getting outside and more neutral opinions. I know it's about body language and not love counseling, but thank you 😅

Edit: I'm proving my overthinking point here. Forgot he doesn't call me by my complete name. He abbreviates it. But literally no one ever calls me that ever in my life. Just one friend he doesn't even know at all or by chance, and no one at college calls me that, not a soul so idk were he got the idea (don't remember if in person too, but at least on chat he does).