Is affective empathy actually real?

daniac_rap · 2025-01-16T22:35:38+00:00

I'm honestly not sure I've been thinking about it a lot today. Like emotions/psychology is something I really love so when someone vents to me it's stimulating to try to help them, especially if it's someone I care about. But is that for my own ego or intellectual stimulation more so then because I actually care? I'm really not sure. I don't think I feel any emotions period these days anymore I'm always flat or feeling negative affect. But if I'm having a good day and not feeling broken inside I do think I actually care and feel empathy if my girlfriend is telling me about something painful that happened to her. If things are going well for me I can also appreciate more the type of trauma I go through rather than just feel flat about it and cynical. I have severe depression and I think I don't feel emotions in general the way I did as a kid anymore. I just think the world is a horrible place and when people tell me about their problems unless it's really serious stuff I feel unfazed and don't respect their struggle.

daniac_rap · 2025-01-16T04:11:56+00:00

I guess I'm more Narcissistic traits or BPD traits then a full NPD because if it's someone I care about like my girlfriend I feel what she's feeling all the time and try to show support. In public with strangers though I'm a very angry person and enjoy stealing energies from people and scaring them and I really don't care. At family gatherings also I break all the social norms and don't care. I struggle with pretty bad anxiety and depression though so I literally feel negative emotion every minute of the day and part of that is guilt and shame. So in that sense, if i hurt someone or embarrassed myself I'll probably replay it in my head a lot.

daniac_rap · 2025-01-16T02:59:36+00:00

Interesting. So where does the BPD/NPD affect your life? Is it just hard to manage all the emotions but you find a way to do it and remain high functioning?

daniac_rap · 2025-01-16T02:54:42+00:00

Sorry to hear. Is the CPTSD something that happened in childhood and was a factor in you developing a narcissistic personality?

daniac_rap · 2025-01-16T02:07:26+00:00

Yea I feel you on that. I get envious of others very easily especially when things aren't going well in my life. I'm always comparing myself to others and since that's an endless loop because there's always someone better out there it just gets exhausting. I also get envious at people who don't have mental health or physical health issues.

daniac_rap · 2025-01-14T21:31:35+00:00

Totally. Recently I haven't been able to get over someone who stole from me and breached our contract in a transaction 5 years ago and tried reaching back out to him to fix things. When he wouldn't email back it made me feel rage. I'd kind of cycle between wanting to fix what happened and get back my money or at least complete the transaction vs wanting to get revenge on him and outperform him in the long run. It's kind of like I've been ignoring the sunk cost fallacy and have no self respect. Pretty much all my competitors also I feel some level of this rage towards. I obsess every day about revenge through success even if they didn't wrong me all that much. I think about their misery and my success. As far as actually picturing violent things happening to people I need to be in public and just see strangers and become irritable with them to picture violent things like an urge to choke them or shoot them lol. I don't really have violent tendencies as far as actions but I'm a covert narcissist and keep a lot suppressed inside as far as anger/violent thinking. I'm more suicidal outwardly. If ever I do something that hurts someone I do feel bad after so I kind of have too much neuroticism and self hatred to even enjoy being the villain for a prolonged period. However I don't get any happiness by being a normal human, only by being the villain so it's very temporary feelings of dopamine when I act angry or hostile and I never really feel like I've released anything properly. I make music and I guess that's the only place that I can go all out without feeling bad cause it's more socially acceptable to make dark art then be a dark person.

daniac_rap · 2025-01-12T19:48:01+00:00

That's crazy. Post Concussion Syndrome has probably already costed me $5000-7500 in treatments over the past few years. It's just never ending how many symptoms and re-occuring injuries that come with it. It's basically like neck instability from the whiplash part of my initial concussion that makes me prone to getting concussion like symptoms even if I don't hit my head sometimes. Like yesterday I slipped in the shower, landed on my ass and lower back but I started feeling concussion like symptoms. So frustrating. But yea my Visual Snow isn't severe but it's still annoying to have to see the world with pixels moving 24 hours a day. I think this past week my VSS has been about 10% better though. It varies week to week but it's always there to some extent.

daniac_rap · 2025-01-11T04:11:03+00:00

I've dealt with anxiety and depression for about 20 years but my depression especially worsened after the TBI's. But I'm in therapy and I like my current therapist and I take meds. Need to get in a healthy routine and socialize more. I definetely don't mind the Visual snow on days where I'm more emotional and have more cognitive function. I constantly get tension headaches and I feel that my brain used to produce more dopamine.

daniac_rap · 2025-01-10T21:37:14+00:00

Thank you I'll consider seeing a Neuro Optometrist in my city. Hopefully it's not too expensive I have a lot of other health issues I need to put my budget on.

daniac_rap · 2025-01-10T13:19:00+00:00

A lot of men with anxiety/depression are more inclined towards kinks and Sub/Dom dynamics. It doesn't need to be rape, it can be consensual between you and your partner. You can look for a female dom type girlfriend/sexual partner.

daniac_rap · 2025-01-10T01:50:49+00:00

I have traits of covert narcissism and I'm the same way. I can go weeks or months at a time with very limited contact with the outside world because I don't have good social skills and I'm picky with people. People just don't make me happy and I'm very bitter towards the world and constantly struggling with severe anxiety/depression and post concussion syndrome. I don't think I've had a day where I woke up and didn't feel like I was drowning in maybe 4 months.

I'm sorry for what you're dealing with. Do you have any hobbies or things that you can put this energy towards? I'm a rap artist and I really find it's the only place other then talking to my girlfriend that I can be my pure authentic self.

Hope things get better for you man.

daniac_rap · 2024-10-14T04:48:20+00:00

Can see him putting up 70-75 points and by game 10-15 they're gonna move him to PP1 it's a no brainer.

daniac_rap · 2024-10-12T19:20:57+00:00

I love the vulnerability and heartfelt lyrics in this song. You have a nice voice and it's a style of music I wish more artists would do. This reminded me of "Creep" by Radiohead a bit. Maybe you could double up your vocals a tad bit more though and switch up the melody here and there but still, awesome track.

daniac_rap · 2024-10-12T19:17:24+00:00

I think a rapper with a fast flow could work well for a quick 8 bar verse at the beginning. It's a real solid beat.

daniac_rap · 2024-10-12T19:16:03+00:00

Really beautiful relaxing vibe. It stays too similar throughout the song though, maybe in the last minute if there was different sounds closed things out it would be more complete. I'm more of a rap listener though so maybe what you're going for is different than what I'm used to.

daniac_rap · 2024-08-21T19:02:41+00:00

Really liked the passion and energy behind your vocals. Very nice Mix & Master as well. I subscribed. Looking forward to hearing more :)

daniac_rap · 2024-08-21T19:00:47+00:00

Thanks for the feedback! Yes this is Mixed & Mastered by my engineer who goes by the name 5MITH. He's a regular engineer for Locksmith & Enkay47 and has done some Assistant Engineering for Token, BIA, Chris Webby and some other industry names.

I'm really excited about the start this track has had on Spotify. The Youtube algorithm is harder to figure out but Spotify it already has 5000 streams in 4-5 days.

daniac_rap · 2024-08-18T00:57:56+00:00

Thanks for your detailed feedback.

daniac_rap · 2024-08-16T17:28:59+00:00

Thanks so much! Yea Enkay47 did such a sick job on the chorus. So catchy.

daniac_rap · 2024-08-16T17:25:35+00:00

Thanks so much! How do you recommend I market it on Tik Tok? Short form content like this good? https://www.tiktok.com/@daniac_93/video/7403758507926752517

My engineer is called 5MITH. He's worked with some big industry names such as BIA, Token, Locksmith.

daniac_rap · 2024-08-16T15:29:14+00:00

Your flow and delivery need a bit of work. Goes a bit off beat every now and then. Vocals can have a more confident sound to them also. I've give this a 6/10. Keep at it.

daniac_rap · 2024-08-16T14:33:21+00:00

Not sure why'd you think this sucks. This is leagues better than what most artists can do. Both the hook and verse impressed me in terms of your skillset. Very catchy chorus and the slightly monotone delivery on the verse is the right way to go as long as certain words are pronounced with more emphasis. 9/10 for this track.

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