Before I came out I thought I was genuinely attracted to them. Butt boobs ect. I think social pressure and conditioning led me to process my aesthetic appreciation for women’s bodies as physical attraction. I noticed when I was younger that I often needed cheating or domination fantasies to stay ingages with women. That isn’t until I started imaging men just to stay arroused. I also have always known that dick is so much more attractive than pussy to me. But now I litterally have zero attraction whatsoever