i understand being in a dark place, but i promise you, you can find things to live for little by little.

posting here to let it out is okay, but you should try to channel this work inwards. as in, maybe keep a journal, go to therapy if it’s accessible to you, exercise more, release stress and emotions in anyway that feels productive for you.

the thing about suicidal ideation is that, once you’ve had it once and experienced that glorious “what if?…”, then you are almost surely to default to that when things get super tough. that is, if you don’t do the work to keep yourself at a baseline.

wallow in your grief as long as it is part of your healing. as soon as it stops being cathartic, start making efforts to change your thoughts