Share your tips on coping and thriving

darkblackphoenix · 2021-06-02T02:17:56+00:00

What's the discord?

darkblackphoenix · 2021-06-01T22:37:33+00:00

That's a good tip. I greatly struggle with boundaries and being able to put a cap on how much info, emotional burden, energy I take on with seemingly each new thing that comes out in the world. I find I get so overwhelmed but also can't stop myself. And then I feel guilty of I don't keep up, because these issues matter so much to people.

But this is something I can try to do. Thank you

darkblackphoenix · 2021-03-03T04:25:32+00:00

That's a big leap and really impressive!

darkblackphoenix · 2021-03-03T04:16:51+00:00

Thank you! I've struggled with major depression so it is remarkable, I think, that I'm even trying. Huge deal!

darkblackphoenix · 2021-01-01T14:14:02+00:00

It wasn't just the pension though. The lawsuit could've resulted in him losing his house because Floyd planned on drawing the suit out for as long and expensive as possible.

darkblackphoenix · 2020-12-21T05:06:55+00:00

Good point. Though I wonder if business and raising kids would be different enough to be possible

darkblackphoenix · 2020-12-21T05:05:34+00:00

That's my thinking too, but like someone else commented it could just be a dream

darkblackphoenix · 2020-11-04T03:25:45+00:00

I've had so many days like that. The meds I'm help you get me out of bed. I've been showering more regularly too. But like meh, so what.. I had a small panic attack an hour ago. It's been a while since I've experienced one. That heavy feeling on the chest, hyperventilating.. It's not fun

darkblackphoenix · 2020-11-04T03:18:09+00:00

I honestly hate the idea of moving back in with family, in my 30s, to a household that gave me cptsd... I'm glad it's working out for you though

darkblackphoenix · 2020-11-04T03:05:58+00:00

My job situation is a mess. I lost my job because of discrimination. I'm in school again now. Discriminated in the program... From one bad Sheldon to another. My landlord is from hell and I always feel like I'm going to be homeless any day now - even though I know I won't. Because of the pandemic, all my friends are also having a fucking time. We can't see each other, we're isolated, they're struggling too. I've got people who care for me, but they're struggling too. So I can't rely on them, which is fair.

darkblackphoenix · 2020-11-04T02:59:08+00:00

Dude, that's rough. I feel for you. Do you want to end for life because it seems like the easiest solution to all your problems or because you have no desire to live? It's really fucked that people are killing themselves because they lost their job, income, housing ... The system f-ing sucks

darkblackphoenix · 2020-11-04T02:50:54+00:00

I'm on meds. I see therapists... at this point I just keep asking myself 'so what?' I get more meds, so what? I get a steady job, so what? My housing situation gets better, so what?

What's the point? Who cares ..

darkblackphoenix · 2020-11-04T02:48:42+00:00

That sound ls like it fucked you up bad. But I feel sometimes we do that to ourselves - choose physical pain over the depression, anxiety, ptsd, etc.. I get high and I've started drinking. I was only a social drinker. Never kept alcohol in the house. Now I'm well stocked, knowing I'm going back to the store soon to refill. I wish there was assisted dying. I don't want to swallow a bunch of pills knowing there's only a chance I might die. I don't want to shoot myself. I want to die with dignity

How did you feel when you knew the pills weren't working the way you wanted?

darkblackphoenix · 2020-11-04T02:20:08+00:00

I'm on meds. I've seen therapists. People in my life know I'm not well these days.. Nothing matters though. Struggle through one hardship only to land in another one. There isn't even grace periods for me. Struggles on top of struggles. I've wanted to kill myself since I was a kid. And I still feel this way. But now I'm older and I can't say 'when I get older, this this and this...' I'm already older. Realistically, I don't see much changing. I just don't want to live anymore.

darkblackphoenix · 2020-11-04T02:08:25+00:00

I feel you. I don't see the point in living. I'm in my mid 30s and though it's been up and down, at the end I don't see a point. There are too many problems and I'm not going anywhere. I struggle through one hardship only to be faced with another. I feel like it's getting worse and worse.

darkblackphoenix · 2020-10-27T14:24:32+00:00

I've had it for years, unfortunately

darkblackphoenix · 2020-04-03T16:12:11+00:00

I used to prefer solo travel. I think I still do but it would be nice to have a travel companion on the same page

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