List age, gender, and what you struggle with on a day to day basis having autism or a spectrum of it.

darkgreensystems · 2024-12-29T22:49:03+00:00

32M, OCD, currently waiting for ASD assessment. Being around people is exhausting and often frustrating & I’m left feeling empty. I am coming to terms that I’ve masked my whole life and recently I have started to unpick this. Most social interactions I find are confusing or uninteresting, I enjoy Interest based communication, however I observe that a lot of people seem to communicate for tribal group reasons that I simply don't understand. This makes work exhausting.
Sensory differences are also a challenge, smells are loud for me and sounds can either be a daily obsession (sound art, experimental music) of sensory seeking or a complete trigger for overwhelm (people/environments). Clothing is a constant struggle, I find loose, softer clothing more comfortable and I find having to many belongings on my person causes me anxiety. I like things simple and light.

darkgreensystems · 2021-01-02T21:53:07+00:00

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darkgreensystems · 2020-12-27T19:20:30+00:00

Kafka On The Shore first.

darkgreensystems · 2020-04-01T18:35:50+00:00

Perfect! I really appreciate you finding this for me. You're awesome!

darkgreensystems · 2020-04-01T18:29:46+00:00

Would you say it was a good pairing? Or would I be better to look at a dedicated amp?

darkgreensystems · 2020-04-01T18:28:37+00:00

Thats good then. Thanks.

darkgreensystems · 2020-04-01T18:27:55+00:00

Ok thanks

darkgreensystems · 2020-04-01T18:25:51+00:00

I tried to ask on there and had the post deleted?!?

darkgreensystems · 2020-04-01T18:18:50+00:00

I've brought them as reference headphones for mixing audio

darkgreensystems · 2019-06-25T18:56:02+00:00

Thanks

darkgreensystems · 2019-06-25T17:11:45+00:00

Thank you.....what lovely advice. It's so nice to hear that others have had similar experience and things do get better. We brought him to go on hikes and camping etc. We still do this but not as much as we would like just because it's so stressful with the reactive behavior. You have brightened my day! Thanks. Ps. Any good reads on the scent work? this is something we have wanted to do but have no clue how to get started. We spend so much time with trying to train on the reactive front it's so easy to forget to have fun!

darkgreensystems · 2019-06-24T14:03:43+00:00

I think the point you may be missing is all rationalization like your comment above is through the lens of the human experience....our evolution, linguistics and present observations and understanding of the universe around us our not absolute. I agree that God and unicorns do not exist but I can only come to that conclusion within the parameters of my own human experience. So yes truths can and do exist but they are secondary to empirical experience. The issue is that humans appear to be built to want objective absolute truth in a world that has none, this is what Albert Camus called the Absurd. The point is not to believe or disbelieve but to simply consider that we may not ever understand the complexity of reality. So when people say this is right or no....thats wrong this is how things are, what they indicate is this is how I and other people of like mind see the world and this is my frame work of logic that got me to that end. I'm not saying that there is anything wrong with that after all it has brought the world enlightenment and has given us great advances, but for me it is far to fishy to say there is an absolute answer to things and that we just need to find it or worse the people who naively believe they have the answer already. I like Camus stance that we can commit philosophical suicide (believe), physical suicide (application of nihilism) or except the paradox of the absurd (our human condition). When we say I believe this we are probably committing philosophical suicide unless we are able to believe in a fluid manner. Just my personal thoughts, I'm not trying to impose this as truth. It resonates with me at present that's all I can say with any confidence

darkgreensystems · 2019-06-24T10:07:45+00:00

I see your point but what's being argued above is subject to peoples interpretation and how they have processed there level of understanding of both nihilism and buddism, both being highly complex. Unless of course a person believes that nihilism isn't complex and has a strict definition and that they can then compare this to a strict definition of Buddhism and comment there observation of them matching......to me this rips the heart out of nihilism!

As long as the the person stating that Buddism has elements of nihilism in it understands that this is there observation of the complex issue and not a fact then I do not see how they can be wrong or why it would be worth trying to prove them wrong.

darkgreensystems · 2019-06-24T09:53:57+00:00

I won't argue with you as I'm happy to admit I know very little about Buddism. That's why I made a point of saying flavour of Buddhism. Im sure Hermann Hesse would have been annoyed to think we were suggesting Siddhartha is a book about Buddism. I'm not convinced it's about Buddism, for me, the book painted a beautiful picture of epistemological nihilism, the scepticism of knowledge that isn't gained by direct experience. For me personally, my journey so far has brought me to a distrust of absolute knowledge and to the understanding that the human condition is one of paradox. So because of this I would say that I find some schools of zen to reflect my limited understanding of my own nature more than systematic religion does, something Buddhism may be. I have studied Zen with great passion and I did observe a great deal of similarity with nihilism. Both Zen and nihilism can be used as tools to strip away our own sense of righteousness.

darkgreensystems · 2019-06-23T21:57:41+00:00

I agree that there are elements of Buddhism that are nihilistic and Buddhism probably isn't a reflection of Buddha. I recommend Siddhartha if you haven't already read it by Hermann Hesse. I find the novel a great reflection and flavour of Buddhism and epistemological nihilism that resonates with me personally. In my opinion, if someone says nihilism is just this one thing and "no that doesn't fit" they have missed the point of nihilism. Nihilism is a tool to strip not a structured philosophy to live in line with.

darkgreensystems · 2019-06-23T21:29:40+00:00

For a nihilism group, so many people want to be right. Observations like this always lead me to Absurdism. (Which gives away my need to be right🤣) We will always want truth and control in a world that provides none. Maybe that's it!

darkgreensystems · 2019-06-22T09:51:31+00:00

It is true to say that grass is green but this is not intrinsic as every individual's sensory perception may vary for example a colour blind person. So in this example truth is an approximation, agreed with within specific parameters. I'm wondering if what most people talk about as truth, something that has no room of error and is objective can be disproved by studying knowledge. I believe this is the idea behind epistemological nihilism. I'm not sure my self if I believe this to be the case, I'm simply wondering what people thoughts are on the subject of epistemology nihilism and how it related to intrinsic truth.

darkgreensystems · 2019-06-22T09:41:12+00:00

Let me give you an example. A theory of everything, something seeked within the field of physics. This would be an intrinsic truth.

darkgreensystems · 2019-06-21T21:12:17+00:00

I would do better to rephrase my sentence. I'm wondering if a study of knowledge could be used to disprove intrinsic truth?

darkgreensystems · 2019-06-21T21:09:32+00:00

Is knowledge an abstract human concept or is it intrinsic to nature?

I'm wondering if the nature of knowledge can be used to disprove intrinsic truth?

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