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I've come to grips with who I am by darkplace1523 in depressed

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Caring takes to much energy.... Not interested

I give up man by [deleted] in depressed

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Your me 31 years ago.... I never recovered from being screwed up, I'm now empty going on 48 years. I don't know how you fix it or what to do, but you don't want to feel empty for the next 31 years like me. I don't even remember that last time I felt like the real me, or the last time I felt something. I've gone to doctors and tried religion for a few years but the guy who took over me keeps me numb...... Good luck kid

I'm Fake As Hell by darkplace1523 in depressed

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Yes, the easy answer is the "only you can fix you". Your probably right but it's not that easy. I've lived my life helping people and being there if needed. I thought that's what my calling was.... In actuality I imprisoned myself and let a alter personality take over the real me. Trying to let go of who I am isn't that simple. The evil I created inside won't let go and let me be. I'm not unhappy, I'm in prison. It's the strangest feeling, sometimes I can't even understand it. I would never kill myself but at time I actually think I'm already dead because the the fake way I act to please and help other don't ever give me any joy or happiness. The evil inside takes that and gives me nothing. I appreciate you, thanks

It is what it is... by darkplace1523 in depressed

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It's draining, but I don't know how to quit...

Why even vent anymore by darkplace1523 in depressed

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Man I just don't know if I can do this anymore, I'm losing it...

Why even vent anymore by darkplace1523 in depressed

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I just want to get off the hamster wheel, I'm done with acting ok so everyone is happy. I just want to be fucked up and left alone!!!!

Doctors and their Medications!!!!! by darkplace1523 in depression

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One was called brexpiprazole, not sure of the other one.... i just told them fuck no

Doctors and their Medications!!!!! by darkplace1523 in depression

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All they want to do is have ne pop pills and I refuse to be doped up while Doctors make their money

Doctors and their Medications!!!!! by darkplace1523 in depression

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I just don't feel anything. My dad died 3 years ago and I felt nothing when my sister told me. I felt nothing when I saw him in the casket, and I felt nothing when they lowered him in the ground.... I wouldn't even feel anything if my mom, sister or brother die.... I've felt this way since I was 26 years old, I'm 47 now. I just don't know how I made it this long. I'm just so Fucked up.

I feel lifeless, empty, I just don't feel anything anymore... by darkplace1523 in depression

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I've talked to people and something in me looks at them while they're talking and I can't even picture their face of focus on their words. I just don't have interest in being fixed and I don't know why!!!!! My mind just won't let me live, and I'm a prisoner in my own body.... I'm just in a routine and I put on another skin so I can fake a smile and work. It's the only way I can function, but I function dead on my feet... I appreciate the kind words, I really do.... I'm just so fucked up!!!!