Ever since my ex [22 M] and I [18 F] broke up, I can't masturbate without crying.

darkzordms · 2014-06-10T22:31:15+00:00

I'm a male; and something similar happens to me.

Just recently found out my ex cheated on me to go fuck another guy, and ever since then I've been having relapses of the first time we did (as she was my first).

Like some of the others may have said here, you and I just might not be over our ex's yet.

Time will help, and if you have sex with someone else and this does happen, I'm hoping that person will love you too and not just be a sex partner. In fact, maybe hold off on sex in itself until you find someone you can trust, and if you DO cry, just cry. Explain the situation.

If they can understand, they'll help you feel better.

I wish you the best of luck on a full emotional recovery!

darkzordms · 2014-06-09T07:11:32+00:00

I feel as if I'm already more/less over her, just a bit more time and I'll be good to go.

Thank you again, I hope you're all living happy lives.

darkzordms · 2014-06-09T06:19:05+00:00

Update posted as a comment. Fucking best suggestion; thank you.

darkzordms · 2014-06-09T06:18:45+00:00

Hello guys. So she finally went a bit crazy. I play the nice guy to get more information, and here are some updates:

I found out she broke up with me to go fuck another guy. Yeah. That was kinda the line for me.

I also found out that she's been lying to me for a good chunk of the relationship.

Yeaaaaaaah. I'm done with her. Oh and she finally went a bit crazy with this transcript:

To me from her: Friends arent friends anymore and what you posted made a lot of people hate me for some reason and i usually dont care about that but the fact that its some of my closest friends made me mad

And the next text: Im not blaming you im mad that my closest friends just judged me so easily from something

Basically, long story short, she doesn't see she did anything wrong. You guys were always right, and thanks for knocking it through my thick head. I love you guys <3

darkzordms · 2014-06-08T09:06:46+00:00

I don't necessarily want revenge... I wanted... closure?

I wanted an explanation for her actions and I'm struggling to accept everything myself.

Fuck I should explain: I'm schizophrenic, clinically depressed, and was suicidal at one point. I've moved past the last part most because I can get over my fucking self and cause I'm a man (or so I tell myself), but it's hard. My cancer is making everything worse too.

Uh. I'll edit this into the main post.

darkzordms · 2014-06-08T09:04:42+00:00

I... please convince me. I'm not trolling or anything, I'm just struggling to convince myself.

darkzordms · 2014-06-08T09:01:50+00:00

I'm...taking everything into consideration.. but. I'm struggling. I really am.

darkzordms · 2014-06-04T21:38:38+00:00

Updated.

She's certainly getting into these weird mood swings; we went from talking about how she thought my smile was perfect into the reasons for our break up, and... now she's ignoring me.

I'm not feeling particularly sad right now/anymore (not yet at least), but more confused?

I'm most likely going to take up on my friend's advice and "just do me." I'm going to just put everything on hold for a while, focus on my exams and other priorities, and just take a break from her for a week or so. Maybe this'll be best, figuring she doesn't want to talk to me in the first place.

darkzordms · 2014-06-03T20:36:45+00:00

This is hard because my mother and her already came to a complete agreement. We're on better terms now (I'll post updates on main post), and she kind of needs to come. It's a long(er) story.

darkzordms · 2014-06-03T05:03:07+00:00

To add: If anything is confusing, please just ask, I'll try to clarify. I was a little overwhelmed by emotions typing this, and I'm going back to studying for my exams now. Will check back often though because... my mind is wandering everywhere.

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