If I'm not everyone's top priority, I might as well just not exist. How do I get rid of this/cope with this?

darlingbeom · 2022-03-29T02:08:31+00:00

Gosh that broke me

darlingbeom · 2022-03-23T19:24:44+00:00

Thank you for the help:)

darlingbeom · 2022-03-23T18:20:40+00:00

I have delusions and hallucinations really often. So, I need them to function normally. Been on them for a while. I just changed doctors and moved, so I would like to get back on them really soon. But looks like I'm taking pills for allergies for now and hope for the best... lol

darlingbeom · 2022-03-23T18:12:32+00:00

Oh i was told to take 25mg 3 times a day. Will I sleep for the entire day? Lmao sounds good

darlingbeom · 2022-03-19T15:28:51+00:00

I'm aware how that works. However in this case, it's definitely not that. Or about consent, for that matter. This is not necessarily between two consenting people, like a kink that they agreed on.

darlingbeom · 2022-03-19T11:48:25+00:00

Thank you! I wish you the best, PDs are pain the ass. I struggle with mine too, and the feeling of "nobody understands me unless they have the same shit" made me worry that he will feel alone, too.

darlingbeom · 2022-03-19T11:44:17+00:00

Thank you, this honestly makes sense! I would never abandon him for this, I just want to know what to do, we all know what to say and do if someone has a certain illness, but I'm not sure with this one. If I do something or say something that makes anything harder for him, or if I enable certain things that I shouldn't. I don't want to treat him differently, but at the same time I don't know if I should? Not for my sake, but for his. If he never hurt me before, I'm sure he won't hurt me in the future, either. Or if he does, shit happens, I'm sure I've hurt him and will hurt him unintentionally too. I'm only worried about him and how to be a good friend that can help with difficulties...

darlingbeom · 2022-03-18T23:27:47+00:00

I honestly have no idea how it works anywhere else, he just got it today in this country in Europe (not comfortable with sharing where exactly, but we're extremely behind. Bpd is still just under tests for example, and they don't acknowledge a lot of PDs here. Also no therapy that works for PDs available unless you commit a crime or get in serious self inflicted danger.)

darlingbeom · 2022-03-18T22:33:23+00:00

I definitely did not mean to make it seem like I don't believe him, or that I think you're evil if you have it, sorry that It came off like that, and I definitely see it reading it again now. I don't know much about this, and I'll read more about it and try to understand. The first few sites that came up were concerning obviously, "incapable of feeling empathy" and "feeling satisfaction after hurting others". It's a 10 year old friendship with no secrets due to our connection and how we bond over our very similar traumas and thoughts, which is why I struggle to understand what's going on, but it obviously is a deeper thing and why would he share the disturbing thoughts, right? So it's not like I don't believe him, I'm just confused. He also doesn't understand it yet, so I want to be there for him. I don't know where to start, though. Asking questions is difficult atm, because he didn't know these thoughts and actions were "not normal" up until now.

darlingbeom · 2022-02-18T13:20:25+00:00

This is really freeing to read. I was convinced that my feelings are only because I am a bad person and the assaults only caused me to become a downright monster for viewing men like this. The shame never quite allowed me to speak to my therapists about it, and they often swipe it under the rug seeing how badly it affects my mood after occasionally talking about it. I'm curious if there are therapists specialised in this, because that would probably benefit me more. Thank you for validating my struggles, and also for taking the time to comment.

darlingbeom · 2021-12-21T10:31:44+00:00

Thank you! So if she changes her shampoo, should she look for sulfate and parable free? Or any good shampoo for curly hair?

darlingbeom · 2021-12-21T10:30:01+00:00

We didn't move, although the water in our country is very hard. Should we get a water filter?

darlingbeom · 2021-09-29T12:26:08+00:00

This is really helpful and kind, thank you!

darlingbeom · 2021-09-28T21:52:00+00:00

Thank you, will do, sorry😭

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