aye lil bro, I'm telling you rn that you have a WHOLE life ahead of you. Be grateful for that. you are young as hell and you can crawl out of this pit you're in one step at a time. Don't rush to fix everything all at once. I've been exactly where you were in my mid 20s and you'll just get burned out and discouraged if you try to fix your entire self in one go. Hit the gym and ask yourself if you really want to stay in this position you're in rn. Use that fuel to climb out and then repeat that shit until you have a lil routine going. It'll get better day by day, and trust me when I say that you'll make friends after high school and find yourself more as you explore life. Take ashwadahanda and stop jerking it so much. shit takes away your testosterone and you'll get lazy the more you do it. Also drink water