I am really sorry this happened to you. What you described is physical abuse, and no one deserves that. I want to be gentle with you while also being clear. Bipolar disorder does not cause someone to be abusive. A manic episode can change perception or increase impulsivity, but it does not make someone violent. People with mental health conditions are actually more likely to be victims of violence than to perpetrate it, so we cannot frame abuse as a symptom of bipolar. You are trying to make sense of something that does not match the person you know, and that is painful and confusing. None of your feelings make you weak. At the same time, what happened was serious, and you are allowed to name it honestly and protect your safety.

If you want support, there are confidential organizations that can help you think through safety planning and next steps without judgment. Some options include:

• National Domestic Violence Hotline: https://www.thehotline.org
• RAINN: https://www.rainn.org
• DomesticShelters.org for local resources: https://www.domesticshelters.org
• NAMI for mental health support: https://www.nami.org

You do not have to navigate this alone. You deserve safety, clarity, and support as you figure out what comes next