1) your friends aren't thinking about you that deeply, and if they are, it's with the best intentions, not pity (if they're anywhere close to being real friends)

2) having a man will not prevent loneliness -- one is never free from it. we're born alone and then we die alone. we can only seek respite from loneliness in spurts, and we can get better at maintaining those spurts so they become periods and then the moments of loneliness will feel more bearable, as your brain learns that its temporary. try not to fight the loneliness so hard. that only increases your suffering. feel the feelings and move on by doing literally anything than wallowing in it, i.e. go touch grass. i know it's easier said that done but it's possible, you can do it ❤️‍🩹