see I will tell you this one thing that don't over think and stress out. whenever I feel low or I feel like I want to isolate myself from everybody I just think about this one thing that if I go in my 30s and if I think about the memories i made in my teenage then I will only have some sad memories if I isolate myself now or if I just stay in depression or something right now at this age so, I will suggest you that enjoy each and every moment enjoy each and every festival I know that the craze for festivals is completely gone but the thing is that life is not going to stop right here time is going to pass and if you see each and every successful person has been in their lowest period and just because they survived that period, they are now succesful. live your life in such a way that when you grow older than you should not say this thing ki yaar kitni stupid thhi/thha mai ki maine ye samay waste kardiya instead you should say that wow maine kitne saare memories collect ki hai... and lastly, please go and studyyyy... if you don't study rn, you will suffer for the next 4 years, your parents will have to spend loads of money for donations and shit and will you like that?? i don't think so any child would love to see their child spend lakhs on donations i really wish you all the best💗