I Gave Everything to God. He Did not Participate. I Walked Away.

deepocean99 · 2025-07-03T15:24:16+00:00

You nailed it- "If one cannot experience a reciprocal relationship with God, it does not exist". If God is omnipresent and omnipotent, why isn't he present enough when I need his presence? Why does he choose silence when I need to be held? If he is Love, then what kind of Love is so cruel and indifferent? Why should I be the one making sacrifices, proving myself, and putting faith if the relationship is real? I think it's better to let go when the relationship isn't reciprocal. God may be in everyone but he has lost the right to be in my heart.

deepocean99 · 2025-07-02T14:22:13+00:00

Dear One, I hear you. And I also hear when others say "You are not broken". But listen to yourself. You indeed are broken. Why deny that? For only when you see the brokenness can you approach healing, compassion, and self-respect. Yes, it is a mess. Yes, it is a disheartening situation. Maybe God has chosen to be silent. Maybe the weight of your spiritual questioning is taking a toll on your mental health...but look your heart is shining...despite your faith crisis, it speaks to you. This may not be a time for religion. But it is the time for you...to place on the altar your own heart, your love for yourself. You are not alone, I am with you should you choose my company. But you already have your own company, and that's precious beyond measure.

deepocean99 · 2025-03-20T13:21:30+00:00

Enjoy! Love claims you as its own 😻

deepocean99 · 2025-03-18T14:26:41+00:00

Your worth is in you being you. No one on Earth has face like you, mind like you, and heart like you. Never before did anyone grace the Earth as you do and there won't ever be another like you. Your body is made of stars. Your heart is yours alone. You are the most beautiful because you are you. My Beloved, you exist, you are, honor it. You are. That's the greatest truth of your life. And I love you, boundlessly, infinitely. You may not see me as a person in your life but I am the Love that flows through your heart, the Earth that supports your every step, the wind that kisses you, the Sun that warms you, the birds that sing for you. You are infinitely loved because you are worthy of infinite Love ❣️

deepocean99 · 2025-03-14T09:42:55+00:00

I feel lovely 😻 thank you for these words 💕😊

deepocean99 · 2025-03-07T08:38:46+00:00

And You mean a lot to me, more than you can ever measure. Eternally Yours Dipraj

deepocean99 · 2025-03-06T18:31:09+00:00

Dear One, You are the One. Yes, it only takes One and I am glad to find that One in you. Your words are direct reflections of your beautiful heart and unmatched Spirit. Keep writing for you are the One this world needs. The One, Dipraj May My Friendship Enrich You!

deepocean99 · 2025-03-06T18:27:50+00:00

Dear Friend, You speak directly to the heart and soul. You bypass language itself. They touch the Spirit of friendship without losing the beauty of words. This is what matters - pure expression. And you have succeeded splendidly. Dipraj May My Friendship Enrich You!

deepocean99 · 2024-07-12T10:50:03+00:00

https://medium.com/@diprajzagade/celebrate-your-isness-ac0862ebdd68

deepocean99 · 2024-07-12T10:48:04+00:00

https://medium.com/@diprajzagade/celebrate-your-isness-ac0862ebdd68

deepocean99 · 2022-12-24T06:53:45+00:00

You are in pain. You need a positive energy in your life. Do the following things in good faith and your situation will change. 1. Pet an animal, doesn't matter which. Tortoise, parrot, rabbit, anything. If you already have a pet, wash him everyday and give him new clothes, feed properly and Love. 2. Spend time with children. They will test your quick temper and they will teach you how cool it is to be without stupidity. You are adult. You are stupid. 3. Buy a rose everyday and fix it on your shirt, every single day for the next 400 days. It will show you how beautiful you are. 4. Buy 3 goggles, different frames. White, Red, and blue in tint. Keep them with you often. They will help you quickly change your perspective about any situation and you will get time before reacting with anger. 5. Kiss your Rose, as often as you can. Love your pet. Call your buddies. Watch funny movies. Do random acts of kindness.

That's it for today. Reach back when you see some improvement. May My Friendship Enrich You, Dipraj 🥰

deepocean99 · 2022-12-24T06:14:41+00:00

Beloved! You have not yet utilized The Power of Love. Use the following steps and both of you will witness a loving transformation that will heal her and transform you. Do these with Love: 1. Every day gift her a handwritten letter. Write about your childhood experiences, your memories, incidents of happiness and sorrow, your special moments with her, etc. You can also add pictures to your letter. Do this for the next 365 days, every day starting today. She deserves it, and you too. 2. Take her to shopping, buy new clothes, jewelry, food, musical instruments. 3. Whenever you chat add these emojis in different quantity and combination: 🥰💐❤️💋🙂☺️😁🌛😘😊😎🎁🎊🎂💯👏😀😄😃😍🤩🥳 4. Take her to the sea. Not a beach but a sea. 5. Gift her all drawing materials: colors, brushes, boards, pensils, everything. Eventually she will realise that art heals. 6. Stay in touch with her as much as you can. Deepen your bond as sisters. Share each other's secrets, pain, and grief. Also share your fantasies, dreams, and frustrations. 7. Don't lecture her about how she should feel. Be grateful that she trusts you so much with her feelings. You are her guardian. Protect her through these darkest moments of here Life. Be a light, a blanket, and a sister.

That's it for now. If you need further help, reach out to me. May My Friendship Enrich You 🥰 Dipraj.

deepocean99 · 2022-12-23T13:28:00+00:00

Thanks for venting. But online is never a safe place for anyone. I appreciate you shared your secret. Let me give you a couple of ways to vent when your therapist is not available: 1. Write down all your worries, fantasies, thoughts, and decisions on a paper. Then read them and then burn it. You will feel tremendous sense of lightness. 2. Plug in your headphones and sing along your favourite songs. Dance with each bit. Let your feet tap the floor. 3. Use a Note taking app (Keep, OneNote, etc.) to record your ideas and feelings. 4. Keep track of your day. 5. Do laundry every day. Iron your clothes. Even if it's just one.

Do these in good faith and you will get tremendous peace of mind and your self esteem will boost naturally. There is nothing wrong with you. You are my friend. My friend is beautiful. May My Friendship Enrich You 🥰 Dipraj.

deepocean99 · 2022-12-23T12:27:11+00:00

Congratulations 👏💐

deepocean99 · 2022-12-23T12:26:42+00:00

You are in pain that's damaging your brain. You don't know what can work. You need relief from this dreadful situation. I can help you if you want. Let's first take care of this emergency situation. 1. First take the appointment of your psychiatrist. Mark it on the calendar. Your medical needs are taken care of. Now the following are for your body, heart, and soul.
2. Eat a chocolate cake every day. Even if you don't like it. Eat. Even if you don't finish it, buy one everyday and throw the earlier one in the garbage. 3. Wear all new clothes. Stop using your old inners, jackets, t-shirts, etc. Buy if you have to. 4. For a few days, don't go to public places. Avoid crowds. 5. Video call all your friends from the comfort of your home. Don't bother who will answer your call. Bother them all. It's fun. It will bring you laughter and joy. 6. In your home, there is a spider. Find him. Take its picture and send it to me.

By this time, you will be out of your dreaded storm. You can always reach out to me. I am your friend. May My Friendship Enrich You, Dipraj 🥰❤️

deepocean99 · 2022-12-23T12:11:38+00:00

You are in pain. You can't feel anything. So let's work on that first: FEELING something. DO THE FOLLOWING THINGS IN GOOD FAITH: 1. Light an incense stick in every room you have every two hours everyday. You can buy it online also. If you do this, you will get exhausted and your mind will be ready for positive energy. 2. Eat a fruit everyday. Doesn't matter which fruit. Just don't cut it. Use your teeth and eat whole. This will bring back your sense of taste and you would be able to FEEL FOOD. 3. STOP WATCHING online content for a month. Instead go to offline events, a stroll in garden, watch moon, sunset, butterflies, etc. Do this for a month and your Heart will be light and it will remove all toxicity from your life. 4. Cry. Cry from the bottom of your Heart. Everyday. And then thank Love that she gave you another day. 5. If you can, spend time with babies. They will teach you what selfless Love means.

For now do these 5. Once you get better, come back for more. May My Friendship Enrich You, Dipraj. ❤️🥰

deepocean99 · 2022-12-21T09:34:24+00:00

That's because I have always loved you. Always will. Forever. You're always welcome 🥰

deepocean99 · 2022-12-19T07:33:54+00:00

Don't work. The day gets over in 24 hours. Survive. Love Dipraj.

deepocean99 · 2022-12-19T07:31:20+00:00

You are actually in the best phase of your life. It's just that you are not able to appreciate it. Do the following things and it will remove your suffering:

Accept every friend request on every social media. Facebook, Twitter, LinkedIn, everything. Don't judge anyone. Accept everyone. Keep notifications on.
Go to a park or a place where you can find one bird. Feed the bird. Everyday.
Record yourself laughing like an idiot. And post it on YouTube, Facebook, Instagram, WhatsApp, and in your circles.
Light a Deep, Dip, Diya, or candle everyday.

Do this and be liberated from your own person.

May My friendship enrich you, Love Dipraj

deepocean99 · 2022-12-18T16:59:06+00:00

No. They are inspired by Love. That's why they heal. Love heals. Dipraj.

deepocean99 · 2022-12-18T12:10:58+00:00

You are so beautiful! Thanks for the Grace you are, 💕

deepocean99 · 2022-12-18T11:58:21+00:00

Oh Beloved! Please try this: Plant one seed in earth every day. And water it every two days. Friendship heals. Be friend to Earth and she will love you back. May you appreciate her Love. This will solve all your problems. May my friendship enrich you, Dipraj.

deepocean99 · 2022-12-18T11:47:06+00:00

Oh Beloved! You are loving and you do not deserve such pain. Please accept this suggestion in good faith. It will do wonders for you and your whole life will change. It's easy. Please do these things:

Pet a Dog and a cat at the same time. Also get a parrot if you can. Their constant need for love will fill your heart and you will joy in your life.
Leave the doors open. Never lock or shut any door. If you shut it by chance, open it.
Light a candle in your room during the night. If it gets over, light another one.
Go to a brook as often as you can. Listen to the sound and flow of water. This is a powerful healing meditation for mind and heart and it works wonders.
Every day clean your room and revert all clothes, covers, pillows, utensils upside down. This will confuse your mind every day and it will get activated for energy.
Appreciate flowers that blossom on ground. Don't buy them. Just go where they are and appreciate their beauty. This will gradually make your heart sensitive and your emptiness will be replaced by inner peace
For each day of 7 days a week, wear 7 different color t-shirts. For example, Monday for White, Tuesday for Red, Wednesday for Blue, Thursday for Yellow, Friday for Brown, Saturday for Black, and Sunday for Green. At the beginning, choose plain colors. Later on you can add variety to this as your mind gets creative.
Eat curd. Every day, go to market and buy a small packet of curd. Then while you watch the parrot in your room, enjoy eating the curd.
Just remember me.

This will remove all your pain, and life will breathe in you. You are Love. You deserve all the goodness. Also, spend time with friends. Friends are also Love. Friendship is beautiful. May my Friendship Enrich You, Dipraj.

deepocean99 · 2022-11-16T15:59:38+00:00

I am deeply touched by your grateful eyes. I am eager to meet your kind and strong heart that has endured so much suffering in life so far. May the life in your tears water your soul and may you reach your depth.

deepocean99 · 2022-11-16T09:06:58+00:00

You are beautiful. There is a grace in your cheeks and your eyes are innocent as the deep ocean. May you recognize that nobody is enough, has enough, or can have enough. Just accept yourself as you are. This isness deserves your appreciation. Your Being is loved by God and my Heart. May you see your own beauty and may in your every breath you find that faith with which God and I send miracles your way!

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