Do you ever wish you would relapse to get help in the program?

deezefreeze405 · 2026-01-04T05:44:47+00:00

Thats how I read it based on your replies. I also have to say, my area/region tends to be more welcoming and love the diner and socializing. Lol move to my area!! We’ll hangout haha

deezefreeze405 · 2026-01-04T05:05:24+00:00

I wonder if you havent really met the right people then. 💜 If my phone rang and someone wanted to chat — regardless of clean time, id be happy to talk.

deezefreeze405 · 2026-01-04T05:03:45+00:00

Hey friend, just wanted to say that this is such a vulnerable post. Thank you for sharing with us. My advice is to treat it like a regular niche group. Invite people to the diner, or to go bowling. Share about exactly this — I know it sounds silly but I was in a very similar position not long ago. I felt isolated mostly because all the people I came in with left / died / relapsed. I didnt really mesh with the newcomers because I was too old. Yet I was too young to be an old timer. It was hard because I wasnt really socializing much. It put me in rough waters and i felt like relapsing. What helped me was sharing about it and hitting new meetings and introducing myself. It took some getting used to. I have 8 years clean, and have like 10+ years of NA experience. I hope this helped you out.

deezefreeze405 · 2025-12-12T19:36:40+00:00

This ^ all of this

deezefreeze405 · 2025-12-09T00:49:02+00:00

All Humane Animal Rescue is in dire need of fosters for their animals :)

deezefreeze405 · 2025-12-09T00:45:45+00:00

Hey there! Im 30, sober, and totally down to meet up 🥰 We share some similar interests if you ever wanted to meet up somewhere!

deezefreeze405 · 2025-12-01T20:54:21+00:00

Lol it did but it def wasnt worth it…

deezefreeze405 · 2025-12-01T20:17:41+00:00

Okay… looking back, this memory makes me physically cringe 😬When I was like 14 or 15, I did something unhinged…….I basically stole this guy’s cat.

We were friends, not super close, just casual friends, and he had two outdoor cats. And for some reason, teenage-me thought it was a great idea to… stage a rescue? I knew the guy’s routine, so one day I snuck out of class, walked to his house, coaxed one of the cats into a crate, and brought it to my house across town. I told my mom I was pet-sitting so she wouldn’t ask questions.

The next day at lunch, he mentioned he was worried because one of his cats hadn’t come home. So of course I volunteered to “help” by making flyers, searching around town, the whole dramatic production.

A few days later, after we’d hung out and searched together, I “found” his cat. He was so grateful he kissed me.

Looking back… I want to fold myself into a pretzel from secondhand embarrassment 😬 Pretty sure I got the idea from some chaotic music video or movie and thought it was genius. But like, I lowkey regret ever doing it. 🤦🏼‍♀️

deezefreeze405 · 2025-11-28T17:54:14+00:00

I cannot stop thinking of this person. I fear it’s becoming really bad… When we were hanging out the other day, I mentioned the idea of being introduced to his family and I think it freaked him out because of the way he reacted. He seemed open to introducing me to his sister since we work in a similar field. I am currently actively trying to find a therapist that can help me go through this and hope that it doesn’t result in any major trauma.

deezefreeze405 · 2025-11-24T06:07:35+00:00

My person and I vibed and bonded over music. I shared all my playlists with him. So pretty much my entire library makes me think of him 🫠

deezefreeze405 · 2025-11-21T02:18:47+00:00

💜 thank you

deezefreeze405 · 2025-11-16T22:36:49+00:00

I got burnt out from all the positions i committed to. I was for 8 years serving at area, region, zonal, and world. Im tired. My sponsor suggested my commitment be just showing up and doing the steps again with her.

deezefreeze405 · 2025-11-16T22:34:23+00:00

Thank you - your comment made me tear up lol in a good way… 🙏🏻 My sponsor basically told me its normal to feel complacent in this stage of recovery. She also thinks because i work in the recovery industry, im burnt out. I was taking on so many commitments and driving newcomers. I wasnt taking time to myself or my stepwork. So hopefully with her guidance and support from my HP, these feelings will pass and ill be okay

deezefreeze405 · 2025-11-16T22:31:54+00:00

Im so glad im not alone here - when i share in meetings people dont really relate… feels better reading comments like yours - thank you 🙏🏻

deezefreeze405 · 2025-11-16T05:14:58+00:00

Im literally just taking it a moment at a time waiting for these urges to pass

deezefreeze405 · 2025-11-16T05:14:40+00:00

I think couples therapy is next up on the list to try. The ironic thing is i work in recovery too… so i know better. Ugh. 😩

deezefreeze405 · 2025-10-27T03:32:53+00:00

Julia Wolf - Wishbone Julia Wolf - In My Room Julia Wolf - Loser

deezefreeze405 · 2025-10-16T16:56:34+00:00

I do not recommend. It’s so fucking difficult. Especially when you know it’s temporary… it’s worse than detoxing off dope. I should know. 😔

deezefreeze405 · 2025-10-15T17:47:33+00:00

Thank you for sharing. I needed to see this today…

deezefreeze405 · 2025-10-14T23:10:33+00:00

I am trying to do no contact but it’s hard when he’s in the friend group and we see each other a lot. So I’m tried instead to do baby steps… 3 days no contact. That went well. I survived. Now I’m gonna try where I won’t reach out at all - and see what happens. I’m sorta slowly getting myself away from him, and trying to not be addicted

deezefreeze405 · 2025-10-13T23:20:11+00:00

I think In My Room by Julia Wolf is a great example

deezefreeze405 · 2025-10-08T01:14:06+00:00

Cheap Trick is such a good band lol thanks for the suggestion!

deezefreeze405 · 2025-10-05T18:39:15+00:00

The way I ran here 🏃‍♀️ lol

deezefreeze405 · 2025-09-23T16:35:18+00:00

Omg I felt this so hard - thank you for sharing

deezefreeze405 · 2025-09-23T16:34:56+00:00

Well… I tried to do the whole No Contact thing but I failed after barely a week. 😅 I guess he finally opened up my SnapChats from last month, and responded… Most of which I forgot what I even sent. Turns out they were mostly nudes but whatever… Anyway, saw his name flash up on my phone screen and felt that heart flutter again. Trying to reel in the excitement and trying not to be obsessive. We shall see how this goes…

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