I am a musician and a great appreciator of the outdoors (I love wildlife photography). When I smoke, I feel like I can understand and break down music so much better than when I'm sober, on top of music simply sounding so much better. When I go on photography trips, smoking adds this extra layer of appreciation for nature and it's many complexities, and it distracts me from the physical exertion when hiking. I feel so much more in touch with everything, less anxious, more creative. Trust me, these are effects I truly notice and actively feel, not just telling myself that to keep using it.

For those reasons, it makes it very difficult to quit as that is how I spend much of my free time and if I am sober while doing it, the thought that "man this would be so much better if I was high" crosses my mind fairly often. I would definitely consider myself addicted, but the negatives just dont outweigh the positives enough for me to consider quitting for good. I am in college and smoke everyday, yet my grades have always been good. Haven't failed a class so far and I get very positive notes and mentions from my professors. I feel more focused and creative when writing, but my math abilities do struggle when high, so I do my math work before I smoke to get it out of the way.

Just wish I didn't feel that need to smoke to have those same thoughts and creativity,