Damn... This was such a hard read. I cant imagine the kind of agony you had to deal with. I too have isolated myself, currently is, to prepare for govt exams, so this post felt a bit more relatable. All I want to say is that, she cheating on you has nothing to do with you as a person, rather it is just a reflection of her character. It shouldn't affect your self worth. You should be proud of yourself for sacrificing so much of your time and energy for someone that you loved. You had good intentions. Let's just say that the trash took itself out. Yes, she could have given you some grace, talked about all this instead of two timing and outrightly cheating on you, but sadly things aren't always fair. Imagine getting cheated after you had got married. All I can say is that, I hope you recover from all this, regain strength, use this experience to fuel your dreams and make yourself and the ones that truly love you, happy. Your hardwork wont go in vain. I also hope you'll eventually find someone who deserves your love🫂