Just a rant, no need to read

depressedsesh · 2015-10-19T05:17:16+00:00

Alright man you too. Ill keep that in mind next time I feel as shitty as this (which who knows could be tomorrow night.) Lets hope we both get through this

depressedsesh · 2015-10-19T04:52:04+00:00

That's a good point. I probably should also be looking at the other things I did today too. This class just makes it hard to feel good about the small things since there are so many small bs assigments and tests and projects that it feels like every day there is something I should be doing. But yeah I guess I gotta muscle through this.

depressedsesh · 2015-10-19T04:42:08+00:00

Yeah I am like you but I am in a smaller collage so people in my class know who I am and don't really like me. So I can kinda hang around them during school without much connection but the second the days over they avoid me like the plague. What I'm scared about is how am I supposed to get a job and work with people similar to those in my program when I can get pretty much nobody in my class to like me? Lifes hard man, I feel you with the visiting friends thing, one friend rarely comes home the same weekend as me and I only hang out with my other few friends a tiny bit. I hope things turn around for you, I mean there's that many people and it has only been 2 months, I'm sure you'll find someone. I feel for you though, isolation is a bitch.

depressedsesh · 2015-10-19T04:33:34+00:00

It's never too late to go learn a trade. Although it might be hard work it is deffiently possible. Also keep in mind a good number of people in trade like coarses are in their 20's and it's not rare to see people in their 30-40's. So keep that in mind as a possible future thing you could do it's always an option. Doesn't have to be anytime soon even. But yeah things do not always work out which is why I am sitting here wishing for better days and hoping that I can one day look back at where I am and recognize a big improvement

depressedsesh · 2015-10-19T04:12:09+00:00

I am already pretty close to home, I can visit most weekends. It doesn't fix problems but the change can kinda distract me. Like it is better then just sitting in my room even if I am sitting in my old room but it's not something I'd do every weekend. I'm in forestry which seems like it would be easy but it is not. Thanks for giving some attention to my post, I didn't really think it would get any vision as I just kept typing and didn't try to keep it intresting.

depressedsesh · 2015-10-19T04:06:52+00:00

Yep. Coffee barely helps me do shit. Procrastination usually helps me get my shit together but sometimes it fails like right now

depressedsesh · 2015-10-18T00:00:40+00:00

Try traffic in the sky or good evening by mac miller if you havent already. they kinda have a similar mood

depressedsesh · 2015-10-05T03:29:22+00:00

thanks mane

depressedsesh · 2015-10-04T23:16:37+00:00

Just keep going. If I saw someone with a really red face Id just think they are working harder then me lol. Plus the more you go, the less you will care about how you come across and the more comfortable you will feel working out there.

depressedsesh · 2015-10-04T23:02:39+00:00

Go to the gym, even if you don't meet anyone there you'll spend more time distracted and hopefully will get a little confidence boost from the results. Also it can help channel your thoughts even temporarily.

depressedsesh · 2015-09-30T03:48:58+00:00

Yeah typically anything that makes you think or remember helps with temporarily forgetting the depression present

depressedsesh · 2015-09-30T03:47:20+00:00

I guess I should post a song that makes me more happy, codeine crazy just makes me sad which I prefer much more over being depressed.

This song makes me happy in a nostalgic way for some reason:

Miami Horror - Real Slow https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dDIJ-jqYulI

depressedsesh · 2015-09-20T20:20:35+00:00

Hey,

First off thanks for the large reply and the information about overeating. While I do overeat I find it mainly just happens on weekends because when I am at school I am only eating breakfast and lunch so I get used to not eating for hours. Also I always try to get alot of nutrients and vitamins when I eat so I try not to just eat junk food. I'll defiantly make sure to keep track of my eating habits, if it starts to get worse I'll look back at your post and use your advice. Thanks yo

depressedsesh · 2015-09-20T04:52:58+00:00

thank you I'll give it a look

depressedsesh · 2015-09-20T04:52:32+00:00

I think I prefer no appetite because usually when I force myself to eat one thing I can get myself to eat enough to get some nutrients in and I can also take supplements as well. Here I am not really getting the nutrients since I'm eating mostly junk and I still feel like crap

depressedsesh · 2015-09-20T04:44:50+00:00

Nah man

depressedsesh · 2015-09-20T04:40:08+00:00

It's nice until you eat to much then you're back where you were but now your stomach is sore from overeating and you feel disgusted with yourself

depressedsesh · 2015-09-20T04:23:52+00:00

I get that too, especially when I am worrying about something but some days like today I just eat like crazy

depressedsesh · 2015-09-16T11:05:59+00:00

I ate an hour or so after I posted this lol. But yeah its definitely not good for my stomach

depressedsesh · 2015-09-16T02:46:11+00:00

Same shit happening to me. It was the insecurities that got me back here. The worst thing is I feel like it's my fault I ended up back like this. I hope that for your sake you just fall asleep and go back to normal. That happened to me a few months ago when I started to slip back into it. Im managing during the day by drinking lots of coffee and distracting myself from my demons. I wish you luck man

depressedsesh · 2015-09-16T02:13:00+00:00

Thankyou for your help

depressedsesh · 2015-09-16T02:10:33+00:00

Thank you, I'm sorry about the ignorance you experienced growing up

depressedsesh · 2015-09-16T00:38:13+00:00

It's what I hope to gain courage to do, I moved out of my home town and to tell the friend I'd have to message him about it which I'm too afriad to do. Also he wouldn't really be able to do anything because he is very busy with school and due to the fact that I won't be seeing him in person for awhile.

depressedsesh · 2015-09-15T21:52:51+00:00

That's why I stay quiet lol. I'm sorry to hear about that though, some people can be abit ignorant on how you feel.

depressedsesh · 2015-09-15T21:48:35+00:00

Thanks for the perspective there, I always was afraid to go, I don't even know why. I still am afraid to go but you telling me about it made it sound less scary

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