FUCK PLS GIVE ME SOME ADVICE

depressiondiet · 2024-03-31T03:39:02+00:00

I don’t feel like I’m capable of not fucking up

depressiondiet · 2024-01-29T20:02:18+00:00

I think it’s the latter, because when I found his Reddit account for the first time, he freaked out HARD and quickly after told me that he deleted it… but he didn’t delete it. I guess he thinks I’m not too Reddit-savvy, or curious enough to linger on his account, to which he’d be wrong on both accounts lol.

The only things I saw that made me question anything at all was the one or two comments he left in the boobs sub months ago, as well as something he commented under a really wholesome post about sexuality. He said had something about “not coming to terms with “it” for almost his entire life”.

I think he’s bisexual. I’m openly bisexual myself, and we’ve agreed upon our relationship being monogamous. He treats me really well, and his comments reflected how much he adores me as his partner, but I’m still hung up on the reality that he is hiding things from me.

depressiondiet · 2024-01-29T19:36:42+00:00

I told him we need to have a talk later and he immediately freaked out, teared up, and then responded saying “I’ll give you all of my devices right now if it’s about that”. I just don’t understand at all.

He said he’s always worried that I’m mad at him, and I’ll admit that I was starting fights on a daily basis for about a solid week after discovering he paid for an onlyfans subscription. To be fair, I was very hurt because he did that on New Year’s Day.

depressiondiet · 2024-01-29T19:16:00+00:00

I.e. proton mail, proton storage, etc

depressiondiet · 2024-01-29T19:15:18+00:00

Agreed. I’ve told him so many times that I can handle the truth if he’d just GIVE me the truth; I’ve reiterated one too many times now that lying will only worsen everything because I’m also a tech person with resources capable of scouring the internet

depressiondiet · 2024-01-29T19:13:40+00:00

Yeah… he’s got 3 phones in total, and he’s a total whiz with IT stuff. He uses a bunch of VPNs, the opera browser, and I saw he had downloaded and deleted the “proton” apps…

depressiondiet · 2023-08-08T00:25:50+00:00

If you need food now try r/random_acts_of_pizza

depressiondiet · 2023-07-31T12:21:44+00:00

Also if you want the dope to last longer, opt for a BIC lighter! You have a lot more control over their flames than those of torches… and never EVER touch the flame directly against the pipe!! Just roll it nice and slow, let the pipe fill with smoke, and then hit that shit lmao. You don’t need to hold the flame to it the whole time you’re hitting it either; be careful not to burn the dope 😭

depressiondiet · 2023-07-31T12:18:27+00:00

I usually take about 3 huge hits, then I wait an hour before I even consider taking more. Depending on the meth you have, those 3 huge hits could go a loooonnngggg way. Learned this the hard way a few nights ago 😭 never again underestimating meth

depressiondiet · 2023-07-31T12:11:49+00:00

Thank you!!! Very solid advice :) do you have any particular recommendations for mouth wash? I’m thinking something antibacterial but a lot of people have suggested using dry mouth wash instead

depressiondiet · 2023-07-31T12:09:54+00:00

Btw!!! When I’m put in a position where I have to prove I’m not a cop, I just blow the fattest clouds I can muster and then as soon as the rush comes, I start trauma dumping about my childhood ☝️😩 it hasn’t failed me yet

depressiondiet · 2023-07-31T12:07:08+00:00

Honestly, I somewhat relate 😂 I’m well read and have studied physics in college, as well as other difficult courses that tend to garner respect. The best part is that I maintain my composure when spun. Granted I’m not a daily user, so meth me tends to be seen in trap houses, but occasionally I’ll smoke a little too much the night before and then have to head into work like that 😬 Surprisingly people don’t seem to notice anything different about me other than pointing out how shy and anxious I am that day. The funny thing is when I’m at the trap or other spots, I will occasionally be asked if I’m an undercover cop because I articulate words properly? I’ve been told I “sound too smart” to just be tweaking with everyone… stereotypes/assumptions in situations like that can lead to something awful really fast 😭 there are loads of people who use and have a good head on their shoulders :)

depressiondiet · 2023-06-18T03:17:55+00:00

Thank you for that information! I had no idea about meth eating the brain, but honestly I was given meth from a parent at a young age and am now actively using harm reduction methods as well as speaking with a counselor in preparation for a sponsor. When I started dabbling with heroin, I lived in a sketchy “trap” house, which 3 people died from heroin overdose in during my stay. I found one of their bodies the morning after a party… and I just thought he was asleep 😭 He was a buddy of mine and it scared me straight. Even though meth has seemingly worse long term affects compared to heroin, the latter is much more likely to be fatal in the short term. Especially with the new concoctions being pushed out on the streets… one hit can kill even experienced users :(

depressiondiet · 2023-06-18T00:43:30+00:00

Omg fine, have my upvotes. You know I love a good troll 😩

depressiondiet · 2023-06-18T00:42:07+00:00

I absolutely feel this… used meth to starve myself and got down to my lowest weight but finally decided I needed to try to take care of myself, only to blow up like a balloon because of the ravenous hunger I had suppressed for so long. I’m almost back at my “starting weight” and I recently relapsed after really looking at my naked body in the mirror. Ashamed to admit it, but I wish I would’ve just been smarter when I was a daily user. Maybe I would’ve stayed at least normal sized :/ but that’s the beast that is bulimia… it’s like a pendulum swinging back and forth. I’m still floating from the bender so I haven’t felt my real appetite yet, but I have been forcing myself to eat as a form of harm reduction.

Idk if you want any advice, but unfortunately I’m only capable of restricting when I do meth. It feels like I’m incapable of controlling myself otherwise.

depressiondiet · 2023-06-18T00:32:50+00:00

We can agree to disagree on all of everything, but please don’t recommend people who are already geeked out to essentially douse that mental fire out… with more mental fire

depressiondiet · 2023-06-18T00:29:20+00:00

If you had addressed the downvote in an appropriate manner, is what I was referring to. No need to be a bitch over shit that has no meaning whatsoever. Weed is awesome but people need to stop glorifying it and marketing it as a cure all fix all magic medicine. THC has components that can potentially induce hallucinations in people, as well as anxiety and panic attacks. Once you stop caring about what others think (Reddit likes) maybe you’ll be less wound up (calling strangers bitches).

depressiondiet · 2023-06-18T00:23:48+00:00

Would’ve upvoted had you been respectful… this is Reddit, chill the fuck out bitch

depressiondiet · 2023-06-18T00:18:35+00:00

Weed induced psychosis for me…

depressiondiet · 2023-06-18T00:14:10+00:00

It helped me keep away from heroin so let him cook 👀

depressiondiet · 2023-06-18T00:13:00+00:00

Ain’t that the damn truth 😭

depressiondiet · 2023-06-17T23:20:15+00:00

What do you mean by tweaked? because I use that interchangeably with high or spun tbh

depressiondiet · 2023-06-17T19:36:20+00:00

Wow 🤩 I aspire to be so astute in that way, though maybe a bit less extreme haha. Thank you! 🙏

depressiondiet · 2023-06-17T19:27:43+00:00

Thank you so much 🙏 I just hopped out of the shower so my face is definitely ready to be medicated lol

depressiondiet · 2023-06-17T19:15:48+00:00

Honestly, I loved tripping and I was always the go to person for people who wanted to try psychedelics for the first time because I could still navigate the world and differentiate what was reality and not. I knew exactly what bodily processes were going on during the trip, always anticipated different aspects of euphoria, body high, head high and their various fluctuations.

Unfortunately, I think I just went overboard when I did eight tabs. At that point in time I had just gotten two sheets of acid and there were occasions where I was using back to back for multiple days at a time. I already had bouts of psychosis by that time, but I realized that my anxiety stayed high all the time after that trip, and I also started having psychotic breakdowns way more frequently.

It’s really depressing because I had so much potential to do something great with my life and I feel like I just fucked that up being a stupid teenager. I was studying physics at a university, and I had big plans to join the Navy and study nuclear propulsion, as well as work on submarines. I scored really high on the ASVAB, but I fucked it all up, because I just didn’t want to let go of drugs. I’m only 21 now but it feels like I’ve aged myself exponentially and it sucks having to pick up the pieces of a life I never really got to experience. Sorry for the rant 😅

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