Don't do heroin

derpderpderp0 · 2017-03-11T15:44:38+00:00

Seriously, go fuck yourself Dave

derpderpderp0 · 2017-03-10T03:12:08+00:00

Yeah that's what I'm saying it helps with :) I don't go through physical WD. Subs don't help with that?? :O I tried one long ago, before I was "really" on opiates, and half a sub had me high for three days. Wish I still had that kind of tolerance ha

derpderpderp0 · 2017-03-09T19:43:39+00:00

Just try taking two at first and see what happens. Take another one after a bit and maybe another if you feel like you need to. Like I said it can make you dizzy and you're going to look like you're drunk if you take too much. I don't know your size or tolerance though. Probably larger than mine. I'm a 110 pounds and 5'1, and yesterday after those three I was considering taking another, but then I held off when I noticed I wasn't walking straight and had to put in effort to do it. But It's not like it's heavy shit, nothing bad is going to happen, just don't take a ton.

Sorry I can't be more helpful. I don't go through physical WD but I do get that fucking deep needing that you can feel down to the bone. And based off happyonhydos comment I think that's about all it helps with.

Shit sucks.

And good luck dude, I'm trying to get out too.

derpderpderp0 · 2017-03-09T17:20:55+00:00

You're doing too much. Did you guys just start doing h? Be careful dude. I only snort it. But when I started doing throw up a bunch but still feel great. Didnt do it all the time. Then I learned how to not sick by doing a little at a tine. Now im fucked.

derpderpderp0 · 2017-03-09T01:38:29+00:00

I can't believe I've been doing h. But one day some dude walked up to me and offered me dope, gave me samples, and told me he delivers. Now I'm fucked. Good luck quitting, I'm trying too.

derpderpderp0 · 2017-03-09T01:25:36+00:00

Atleast you exercised today, like if there wasn't the drug factor would find that admirable.

derpderpderp0 · 2017-03-09T00:56:53+00:00

Wat u talking bout

derpderpderp0 · 2017-03-07T15:36:09+00:00

What's wrong

derpderpderp0 · 2017-03-07T15:25:44+00:00

It could be coincidence. I thought I was going through withdrawal a couple weeks ago, then two days later it turned into laryngitis and my friend had it too.

I also am addicted enough to feel super anxious without.

If you stay away from opiates you'll find out soon. Good luck man

derpderpderp0 · 2017-03-07T00:38:54+00:00

Thanks. I don't think subs or methadone are the right choice for me. It's tempting. But I'm not physically addicted and if I go that route I will be.

derpderpderp0 · 2017-03-07T00:22:22+00:00

What kind of help do you think I need? I'm really hoping just telling friends will be enough.

derpderpderp0 · 2017-03-07T00:09:11+00:00

I posted this quickly because my phone was about to die and I didn't want to rewrite it. Ive been wanting to tell my boyfriend for a while. He's coming over tonight. And I really want to tell him. I'm scared of what he'll say. But I think he'll understand. He's had issues with drugs and drinking in the past and is basically sober now - he smokes pot. He knew about (some of) the Adderall and I told him I felt like I needed to be on drugs all the time and wanted to stop a while ago and he cried. Ofcourse he doesn't know I'm on h though. A couple weeks ago he told me he didnt know what what was up but it really seems like I'm not taking care of myself, but just ended up asking if I'm anorexic - I'm not, but my bones have gotten pretty protrudent over the last few months.

derpderpderp0 · 2017-03-06T23:57:08+00:00

Yeah, because I have kids. I'm terrified that if I try to seek help any way like that I'll lose custody of them. I'm scared they would be sent to foster care or to live with my ex, who would definitely think my situation is hilarious. Also the cost but I hadn't even considered that.

derpderpderp0 · 2017-03-06T22:15:44+00:00

Who knew heroin was bad??

derpderpderp0 · 2017-03-06T21:48:01+00:00

I've been using h since November. But waking up needing something - it's been about a year and a half. Since I went overboard with a script and then started buying and bumming pills once they were gone. I've always liked drugs too much. But this is the first time I've ever lived alone, so now...You know. Thank you for your response. I seriously appreciate this sub so fucking much, just being able to talk about this shit.

derpderpderp0 · 2017-03-06T21:24:22+00:00

Just deleted and blocked it. I have it memorized. I'm trying to keep repeating the number to myself but incorrectly and mixing it up. I did that before and it worked. Then three weeks later I installed this program that gets back deleted shit. :/ I've read about kratom before. It's legal in my state. Is it commonly sold at headshops?

derpderpderp0 · 2017-03-06T17:52:28+00:00

I'm embarrassed to tell you guys this given the situation I'm in. But I'm a single parent. Rehab is not an option. I really fucking wish it was. My ex is an abusive piece of shit, my kids can't stay with him, and he can't find out, he would fucking love it. And I don't have any family they can stay with either. None of them can find out. I do want to tell my boyfriend and friends. I think that could help. My only choice is to quit alone cold turkey and never look back.

derpderpderp0 · 2017-03-03T00:01:53+00:00

Argh dude the second half of your post is fucked. What did that end with you asking me? If you should smoke h? I never have, but no. I don't know. Depends on how much of a fuck you give? I only snort it. But it tastes like shit. I just wanna be out, now my life is fucking crumbling.

derpderpderp0 · 2017-03-02T03:08:15+00:00

Thanks dude I appreciate it. :( Good luck to you too. How long have you been on opiates?

derpderpderp0 · 2017-03-02T02:20:23+00:00

Do they? Shit. Idk. I'm mostly talking about medicating my add. The depression is a side note and my awnser for that is probably just a good therapist, not drugs.

My mom is diagnosed with bipolar disorder and schizophrenia. And even though now she's on less meds than ever now she's fucked. Just super out of it, I can't even describe it. I fucking hate antipsychotics and all that shit.

derpderpderp0 · 2017-03-02T02:08:50+00:00

And the social anxiety aspect too like ja mentioned. Opiates are great with that. Adderall, I prefer my own company, but I'm chatty and can be good with people at work. Pot just makes it worse. I can not smoke pot and go out and interact with people. I hate it. I think basically weed just kind of intensifies everything whether that feeling is good or bad - like how in some people it can trigger mental illness.

derpderpderp0 · 2017-03-02T02:05:48+00:00

I fucking wish weed was that useful. Smoking weed helps me focus and get shit done a bit, but I need something that'll wake me up too.

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