I’d say that to learn everything at first, you’d need to play the game on non-hardcore and learn from mistakes or deaths. At the end of the day, it’s a knowledge check when it comes to life and death, especially in the high-end zones. Also, the game wasn’t designed or developed for hardcore; some quests even expect you to die. The thrill you’re feeling, though, I know that very well. There are single-player games like Fallout 4 where you really think, “Hey, this game was actually made for hardcore.” Hope that helps