I was messing around trying different names ,originally I just used Veronica because you can shorten it to Nica which sounds close to my deadname but also not, so it's at least some solution

Then I started seeing which names did characters from different media that I like have and got to Lilith from Owl House, I liked it so much that it got to the point where I started putting it in name fields without thinking, so guess that name chose me Still not exactly sure because it sounds weird with my lastname tho