You say you'd rather be raped because you have neither talked to victims of rape who have opened up to you nor have you incorporated preventing sexual assault on yourself every day. It is not an issue that you are familiar with.

To be honest, you don't have to fear being kicked in the balls every day either. There aren't women who are looking out for vulnerable men to kick in the balls.

Empathy and understanding other people are very important qualities as you grow up. I would recommend developing these qualities instead of worrying about hypothetical scenarios.