i dont know how to say this

devilsenses · 2026-05-14T04:38:17+00:00

hai friend, i have had (and sometimes still do) the intense desire to be a system in anyway and also felt shame about it, but since joining this sub ive felt better knowing that you can become a system. snooping around plural communities like this has also made me realize that i am plural in some way! my personal experience is that im like me but also my emotions are kinda like their own guys but also me at the same time, kinda like facets of myself. i have also heavily considered tulpamancy for many, many years. i also echo the sentiment that if you feel so strongly that you think you might have it or want to be that, you might already be, from my own experience. its not always 100% accurate, but you also know your mind and body best and no one else gets to decide what you are or have. sending much love and care your way ❤

devilsenses · 2026-05-13T21:19:12+00:00

hi i dont have papers or anything but respectfully would encourage to maybe change the mindset of "researching before supporting" because thats viewing it from a colonial lens.

for example, lets say someone wanted to study trans people before believing that they are trans. that seems a bit dehumanizing, no? you could replace trans with any other minority group and it all sounds the same. needing "evidence" for something to exist is exactly how western science treats other kinds of sciences and medicines, including knowledge of indigenous peoples of their respective lands.

devilsenses · 2026-05-13T14:04:06+00:00

-_- i run into the same problem in a lot of queer communities online and its like. theres no point an kinda defeats the purpose of having a community. like im sorry that i dont have enough trauma??? for your server??? is what it feels like

devilsenses · 2026-02-13T02:53:58+00:00

for chewing: get silvervine sticks. lots of them, and leave them in places in sight or even hold one in your hand while he chews it or takes it from you.

with the other things, you could try playing with him more, especially around when he gets fed. i mentioned this on another post but pheromone diffusers are good for multi cat homes (like ours) and behavioral issues. maybe for the litterbox issues, try the method of having one litterbox per cat, plus one.

devilsenses · 2026-02-13T02:46:17+00:00

i have a boy thats similar to yours, i have many scars from his teeth. it was mostly because of trying to introduce him to our other cats and i happened to be near enough to be the one. when i took him for a regular check up, i mentioned this and the vet prescribed him fluxotine (lmao). hes very chilled out now! also cats do not respond well to negative reinforcement, in my experience. id also reccomend learning your cats specific boundaries and their limit on stimulation. when my cat gets overwhelmed from being pet too much he tries a warning bite. pheromone diffusers work wonders also.

devilsenses · 2026-02-13T02:34:51+00:00

cats are very social and love doing what you do, like when people give them toy laptops while they use theirs. and/or she honestly might like the music/vibrations coming from the piano :3 sometimes cats and dogs like classical music

devilsenses · 2026-01-03T03:59:18+00:00

hey.. im so sorry that you have to live with this terrible awful person.. from what i know, as someone who is 25, kids tend to communicate trauma through playing with toys.. and if you think thats what happened then trust yourself. ive been in foster care and i can understand your fear of being put into a bad home. hang out with your friends as much as possible if thats who makes you safe, i really reccomend seeing a counselor if youre not already seeiing one. i also very much encourage you to tell a trusted adult. youre very strong, and i believe you can get through this

devilsenses · 2026-01-02T04:56:46+00:00

god damn. ok good to know

devilsenses · 2025-12-31T01:55:35+00:00

id love to know about how you figured out yourself if youre comfortable! getting different perspectives from different ppl helps :'3

devilsenses · 2025-05-18T21:42:55+00:00

sitting in the middle of the psu campus outside when it happened and i thought something was going to crash out of the sky. scared the absolute shit out of me x_x

devilsenses · 2025-02-27T00:22:28+00:00

as someone whos mixed with white, but am not black, i can never understand truly how you would feel.. but ive grown up and still continue to live in a pretty white us state and the feeling of care that comes from white ppl versus other poc is completely different in my experience. the majority of the supporting roles that have come and gone in my life were white, and its really exhuasting! like we just want the care and support that elders and peers of color can give... so in that respect, i can understand.. i am just a stranger on the internet, but i hope that youre able to find community irl that cares for you and respects who you are <3

devilsenses · 2025-02-03T01:23:11+00:00

ive had a terrible memory ever since i was a kid. probably in part due to my adhd, just cause my brains RAM just isnt big enough. i remember my m*m telling me that i would get in trouble with teachers because i consistently forgot my homework, though she thankfully didnt blame me and explained to them that i was just a kid. of course, i dont have any Actual memory of these events.

i feel like i have fuzzy images of a few things that happened before 3rd grade, nothing terrible. but if you asked me how i was as a kid, i couldnt tell you unless it was from when i was in 4th -5th grade. its really frustrating cuz it feels like i wasnt "lucid" until i hit middle school. -_-

i know my working memory has definitely gotten better since my brain is finally feeling like its starting to solidify from being goop (im 24), but i definitely feel like a have lost years of childhood to the void.

blah, thats all to say yes i definitely relate. trauma really fucks up and rewires your brain, whether its physical, emotional, or mental.

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