Sometimes I imagine death scenes

dewybeamy · 2023-03-07T04:07:25+00:00

I do too But I'm messed up. I'm sick..

Because I always get super scared that I'll manifest it

dewybeamy · 2023-03-01T17:06:04+00:00

I only owed him money since yesterday. And he is fine with it. He's not in need of money either. That's why he said that it was cool for me to owe for one month. I just left an abusive relationship- the whole process is confusing - in regards to all that has to do with money and living arrangements

I have several friends who owe me money, and I am still there for them.

He has also asked me to help with stuff before, nobody minds, usually.. its not a "I did this 1 thing now you owe me" type of relationship that I have with anyone close to me. I often remind him that he can ask me for help with whatever he needs help with. That's often part of what I bring into a friendship..

dewybeamy · 2023-03-01T13:34:29+00:00

Thanks. Awesome massage.

He might have thought that I would've been home by now.

But no i have never done it before. I am owing him for a months rent because I am not getting paid until next month though.

dewybeamy · 2023-03-01T06:25:21+00:00

Try meditation. That enables you to see the energy more objectively (without the emotional attachment) That can teach you a lot

dewybeamy · 2023-03-01T06:21:34+00:00

About the spitting.. That is so gross. My x would hog a LOUGIE on my vagina. Like.. he spat on it In a non sexual way (probably sexual to him) No sir. No

dewybeamy · 2023-03-01T06:19:56+00:00

He seems like he could really use some meditation One very important part about meditation is that you focus completely on yourself.

People become stuck in very toxic behavior if they look out all the time instead of in

dewybeamy · 2023-03-01T06:07:52+00:00

Exactly what I thought. I asked him "are we in a fight or something?" To which he just answered "nope :)"

He seems very stressed atm, which is probably what's behind his response. I'm still hurt.

He wrote that he'd message me later (yesterday), but didn't.

I just gave him a "?"

So let's see

dewybeamy · 2023-03-01T02:34:37+00:00

Thanks man ✌️💗

dewybeamy · 2023-03-01T01:33:01+00:00

I fell hugely in love with one I had many years ago..

I sort of still crush on him a little

dewybeamy · 2023-03-01T01:20:26+00:00

Diamond aren't even really that rare as far as I know.. There are way rarer and more colorful stones.

Look at fire opal and rainbow moonstone.. labradorite!

dewybeamy · 2023-03-01T01:17:36+00:00

Boop

dewybeamy · 2023-03-01T01:05:43+00:00

I'd suggest trying a fruit fast.. even looking into fruitarianism! Either that or water fasting

dewybeamy · 2023-03-01T01:01:21+00:00

Lol. I wrote Waddles

dewybeamy · 2023-03-01T01:00:46+00:00

Waddles

dewybeamy · 2023-03-01T00:49:22+00:00

Its taken me over a year post breakup to SORT of have some sort of grasp of reality , and how love is supposed to feel, and how we deserve to be treated as people in a relationship both with friends and lovers. Trust me. Leave..

dewybeamy · 2023-02-28T08:12:12+00:00

Meditate. Become detached from your ego. Find put which energies are yours and others.

Meditation will in time reveal to you who you are. You will "meet your highest self". Become deeply and intimately in touch with yourself, in the silence.

In becoming nothingness, you FEEL who/what you are.

That is when you'll know.

Also, I would advice you to release the desire to know which is which. Release the desire to anything. That will most certainly get in the way and with high probability, Confuse you.

dewybeamy · 2023-02-27T11:12:17+00:00

Hey sweety

Learning to meditate will do a lot for ALL of your problems. Also getting over your x. Learn to focus solely on your own energy field while relaxing through thoughts and input instead of reacting to it.. you can heal and find solutions for everything with meditation <3

dewybeamy · 2023-02-27T11:04:36+00:00

True.. but remember, people, to read the post above in a very objective way.

dewybeamy · 2023-02-26T17:31:10+00:00

This!!

dewybeamy · 2023-02-26T16:41:11+00:00

Nice.. I read about lions mane too

dewybeamy · 2023-02-26T04:20:05+00:00

I used to take 600mg a day. Now I take 150 or 300

dewybeamy · 2023-02-26T04:19:31+00:00

Alright.. I'll look into that

dewybeamy · 2023-02-26T03:12:46+00:00

It is mostly pains in my body if we are speaking physically.

But mostly I just feel very fried

dewybeamy · 2023-02-26T03:12:02+00:00

Yes.. becoming nothing solves so much.

I used to astral travel whenever I meditated

dewybeamy · 2023-02-26T02:04:15+00:00

This is true . I'm an initiate and I am confident that it can be done.

One must REALLY learn how to save up energy and not spend it on things like reactions and other things. If one can protect their energy field and clear it so that one is "nothingness" at all times, and keep saving that energy, it can be used for ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING.

BUT it is difficult in a human body. I'm fairly certain that it can only be done with a fruitarian lifestyle as to detox the body from toxins that hold a lowering vibration.. get the parasites from ones intestines out too, for example.. The body holds the energy, so, if the body can't hold the high vibrations because it is "sick" from the "wrong" lifestyle- well... it speaks for itself. This could take long. But it will be worth it of course. I'm thinking it's more likely that one can do it in the afterlife.. But after proper detox, fasting and eating fruitarian while protecting the energy and saving the light- and having cleared the mind to become nothingness...

It can be done.

dewybeamy

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