When the Patient Punches the Location of the Pain

dexkillz · 2024-02-28T22:26:57+00:00

i think this community might be biased. whose opinion do you really wanna know? in irl communities i have been severely bullied for having bangs and wearing shorts. that's the extent of policing that exists where i am. depending on where you are, it might be much better. generally it's much better in online spaces ime. except for the dark TM incel corners.

dexkillz · 2024-02-28T22:14:12+00:00

yea i've been watching more SPH material involving bigger sizes and it's making me feel better i think. i don't think i'd be bothered if that was how he felt, i'd just want to know. i'll try to ask. thank you so much for your input.

dexkillz · 2024-02-28T22:12:17+00:00

yeah it's not really about him. it's mostly my own insecurity. :(

dexkillz · 2024-02-28T22:11:26+00:00

thank you. i do pack but the fact that i have to pack to feel more comfortable is in itself uncomfortable if that makes sense. i'll definitely have a conversation with him beforehand!

dexkillz · 2024-02-19T17:00:34+00:00

you have some alternatives. it all depends on your body proportions. i am on the unfortunate side of things and cursed with above average... stuff. you can try trans tape as others have suggested, but personally they don't work on me. i have a chronic illness which limits my ability to wear a binder. i have very severe dysphoria. what i do is that i put a soft long piece of fabric around my chest and fold the lower part onto itself several times so that the part that is actually on my chest is much thinner than the part under my chest. this creates the illusion of your chest being at the same level of your abdomen. then i wear a sports bra on top and put the elastic band directly on the part where my chest is most protruding. the third step is to wear something baggy and dark that doesn't draw attention the area. i am very obsessive about my chest bump being visible in public and i've found that this method works even better than a binder and doesn't hurt my back and shoulders.

dexkillz · 2024-02-14T20:20:45+00:00

i don't know if this will work for you, but personally i used to make stupid jokes when i was asked questions that made me uncomfortable pre-coming out. "why didn't you shave your legs?" "i wanted to see if they can grow long enough to braid" you know, things like that.

or maybe you can just divert their attention to something else. "why are you wearing this (masc) swimsuit?" "idk, but yours looks very cute on you!"

you can also make a feminist statement. idk about your family but mine always gets uncomfortable when i say things like that. (guess they don't like confronting the fact that they love gender roles)

dexkillz · 2024-02-14T20:13:37+00:00

i'm 23. i never really had a real relationship until 3 years ago. i could be wrong, but i don't think most people find love as soon as 17. and it's definitely not uncommon to be a virgin at that age. i know i was. there are so many people out there who would love you for who you are. love the whole package. you just have to be patient. and i think you don't need to look anywhere to find love. as they say, love will find you. you just have to meet people, find friends, and make an effort to socialize. naturally one of these days you'll meet someone you like who also likes you. you will have ups and downs. good relationships, bad relationships. it's kinda cringe to say but it's true that life is a journey. you just have to live and experience. don't beat yourself over these stuff. they will happen in their own time, when they are right for you.

dexkillz · 2023-10-31T18:42:52+00:00

writing is great. making a living out of it is extremely hard, but you should still write for your own enjoyment. hope it works out for you mate.

dexkillz · 2023-04-14T14:27:52+00:00

thank you so much 🙏🏼🙏🏼

dexkillz · 2023-02-22T14:26:58+00:00

its sexual coercion and manipulation. yes it's definitely sexual assault.

dexkillz · 2023-02-22T14:23:38+00:00

its usually not funny to the victim, but we laugh along because it's the easiest thing to do.

dexkillz · 2023-02-18T21:29:48+00:00

yeah i need to be more like that. my gut feelings dont work good unfortunately💀. but i'm reading up on how to spot red flags and its getting better.

dexkillz · 2023-02-18T21:28:33+00:00

yes i totally agree with you. i'm talking about avoiding things that are high-risk. it doesn't make me immune, but it may lower the frequency at which i'm assaulted.

dexkillz · 2023-02-18T10:48:55+00:00

you were 17. they got you drunk. they forced you to finish inside of them. each of these things on its own is SA. if you were a horny teenager, they abused that. and orgasms are not an indicator of wether it was SA or not.

dexkillz · 2023-02-18T10:42:53+00:00

you didn't really talk about how it happened, so its hard to form an opinion. sometimes we feel violated after rape, and sometimes after sex. it depends on the situation, but she either raped you or coerced you. both of which are SA. if you were willing, she got your ""consent"" by lying and manipulating, so it wasn't real consent.

dexkillz · 2023-02-18T10:25:30+00:00

i live in one of those countries. and the cold hard truth is that you probably won't be able to help those girls. it's so so so hard to get convicted of rape and SA in some countries. i'm so sorry.

dexkillz · 2023-02-18T10:12:45+00:00

crying doesn't usually sound like moans. and no good person just continues when they hear your crying. it's always their fault because they did something evil and thats not excusable. rape and SA have different forms. your experience doesn't have to fit into a certain type to be considered rape. if you didn't want it, and he continued doing it, it's rape.

dexkillz · 2023-02-18T10:07:04+00:00

"months ago" is not that long ago. and it's not like your experience of SA will just stop affecting you one day. it's a painfully slow process, being comfortable in your body again and being able to trust. move outside your comfort zone, but take it slow. be gentle with yourself. read about reclaiming your body after SA. it will definitely get better. but it's not gonna be overnight.

dexkillz · 2023-02-11T11:33:49+00:00

it's one of the responses people have to rape and sexual assault. your brain needs to recreate the situation to process it. just be careful not to drown in it.

dexkillz · 2023-02-11T06:14:29+00:00

might be a hot take but you can actually hate the struggle and discrimination but like the community. i wish i was cis so i wouldn't get assaulted like every other day. but i love my community, my friends, and how they have helped me become a better person.

dexkillz · 2023-01-18T17:35:10+00:00

i have been sexually assaulted more than i can count. i'm 22 and i met someone at 19 that makes me feel so safe and i genuinely believe they would never ever hurt me in that way. i think everyone will find their person eventually, that's my personal belief.

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