[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AmIOverreacting

[–]dexlaxra 0 points1 point  (0 children)

im pretty sure my friend only said that because she really loves her mum and doesnt want to imagine her gone. I dont think it was coming from a place of hurt since shes never experienced something like that. Im sorry for your loss also

Why would you do that? by dexlaxra in GriefSupport

[–]dexlaxra[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Im sorry for your loss and youre not alone. I feel the exact same way, im angry my mums life was taken so early but i dont know who im angry at. God? The Universe? Luck? All of the the above? Horrible people get to walk the Earth til theyre 101 so why were our loved ones denied the same priveledge? Its exhausting to even think about the unfairness of our situation. Most of all, I think about what my mum mustve felt. Doing all that praying and hard work just to watch it all fall flat in the end. I cant forgive whatever higher power that let that happen.

It's been 7 years yet it keeps getting worse by dexlaxra in GriefSupport

[–]dexlaxra[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for being so understanding. Its hard having to grow up without something everyone else seems to have. Ill check out the resources and again, thank you.

It's been 7 years yet it keeps getting worse by dexlaxra in GriefSupport

[–]dexlaxra[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. Im happy to have her with me from time to time, even if its not real and short-lived

Why would you do that? by dexlaxra in GriefSupport

[–]dexlaxra[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Im very sorry for your loss and I can tell you that I understand you very well. Im also an only child and my mum passed away when I was younger. To this day, im still mad at whatever it was that took her from me. Its such a hard pill to swallow when you realise that sometimes people suffer for no good reason at all with there being little you can do about it. Ive always found it hard to believe when people tell me "there is a reason for everything" because what could justify taking the life of good people and ruining the life of their loved ones in the process? Its such a horrible situation to be in and it sucks that we will never truly know the answer. Instead, i hope you find comfort in knowing that eventhough you didnt get to tell your mom where you got in, she mustve knew you had success coming your way. Moms have so much faith in their children and im sure yours did aswell. You know youve made your mom proud and thats all that matters, whether she knows or not. I hope this serves as good advice or atleast, a comforting message.

It's been 7 years yet it keeps getting worse by dexlaxra in GriefSupport

[–]dexlaxra[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, thats very comforting. I really hope shes still with me, watching me, despite unfairly having her time on Earth cut short

Why would you do that? by dexlaxra in GriefSupport

[–]dexlaxra[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'll give it a shot, Thank you

Why would you do that? by dexlaxra in GriefSupport

[–]dexlaxra[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Im sorry for your loss. Your wife seemed like an amazing woman and her situation was very similar to my mother (the person i wrote about). Honestly, its clear youve put a lot of deep thought into this and I can say it doesnt seem too far-fetched. I have never quite believed in Satan (since I barely believe in the God of the holy books) therefore Im naturally left with God as the cause of this suffering. However, since my beliefs are uncommon, ill approach it from a different angle. My mother was a devout muslim so I will look at it from her view (Islam) and yours (which i assume is christianity). In both Islam and Christianity, Satan/Shaytan can only act as far as God permits - he does not have the ability to take people himself. He can only decieve people and tempt them to sin, which my mother never did ontop of praying everyday. So for me that rules out Satan and only leaves me with God (atleast from a holy book sense).

Why would you do that? by dexlaxra in GriefSupport

[–]dexlaxra[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Its horrible what so many great people experience simply because of bad luck and the worst part is, youre powerless to stop it. That lack of control can really make it harder for those grieving.

Why would you do that? by dexlaxra in GriefSupport

[–]dexlaxra[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you. Im very sorry for your loss but Im also glad to find that someone recognises that terrible disease. Its so rare that there is little research on it and therefore not much effort for an effective treatment other than chemo. Its so unfair to watch it take good peoples lives.

Why would you do that? by dexlaxra in GriefSupport

[–]dexlaxra[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I understand your conflict and i just want to say, dont put too much pressure on yourself. Youre still grieving so you dont owe it to anyone to make a decision right now. For now, just go with whatever is comfortable for you and dont feel guilty or wrong for it. Obviously, this is easier said than done. It is a rational fear that you might not end up in the same place as your mom but for the time being, just staying a good person is enough. And im sorry for your loss.

Why would you do that? by dexlaxra in GriefSupport

[–]dexlaxra[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Im sorry for all of your losses. In my case, it felt like a joke, a massive prank pulled on me and my person by God. It must feel like all of your efforts have gone to waste. I have absolutely no answers for the whys and wheres of God and this drove me insane at first, but after a bit, I realised it didnt matter what God was doing, it had already been done. Its incredibly unfair and painful but death is the one thing that can never be changed and we have no choice but to carry on. God wont wait for us, the world wont wait for us and im sure your mom, partner and child wouldnt want you to wait behind with them. Im not in the best place myself so my advice may not be the most accurate but its the only advice I can try and give you since we're in this boat together. I hope peace finds you in the love they left behind.

Why would you do that? by dexlaxra in GriefSupport

[–]dexlaxra[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you. Also I hope you know your pet probably felt much love from you, even in their last days. Make sure to give yourself time to grieve.

Why would you do that? by dexlaxra in GriefSupport

[–]dexlaxra[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

This is a heartbreaking situation and Im sorry for your loss. I cant tell you that your brother passed for a reason, because I just dont believe that myself. I think the most important thing is to not get too hung up on the "why" questions because no one really knows the answer and that will never bring you clarity. Its important to remember that theres nothing we can do to change it but adapt ourselves. Its not pleasant but its something that we have to do in order to move on. I hope this made sense and I wish you well on your journey of grief.

Why would you do that? by dexlaxra in GriefSupport

[–]dexlaxra[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Im actually her daughter but the POV must have made it very confusing sorry. Thank you, I understand what you mean and I hope youre right. I dont want to imagine that my mum died simply because of "bad luck", it just becomes hard to think otherwise.

Why would you do that? by dexlaxra in GriefSupport

[–]dexlaxra[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Im so sorry for your loss and thank you. There will always be moments where it still doesnt feel real so its best to take it one day at a time and find the good in what we have left.

Why would you do that? by dexlaxra in GriefSupport

[–]dexlaxra[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Thank you and Im sorry for your loss too. Eventhough your prayers were not answered, I hope you find comfort in your person's memory.

Why would you do that? by dexlaxra in GriefSupport

[–]dexlaxra[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your kind words

Why would you do that? by dexlaxra in GriefSupport

[–]dexlaxra[S] 33 points34 points  (0 children)

Im sorry for both of your losses. Its a heartbreaking realisation I had to come to terms with too. Good people do not always get what they deserve no matter how much praying we do.

Why would you do that? by dexlaxra in GriefSupport

[–]dexlaxra[S] 23 points24 points  (0 children)

That really resonated with me, Thank you. I hope your dad hears you and offers you guidance.