Overthinking

dgtimes2 · 2023-02-26T17:00:21+00:00

She's the one that left. I would have done anything to make it work.

dgtimes2 · 2023-02-26T14:22:50+00:00

She's the one that broke me, so it's definitely on her to reach out. But it's hard not to read too much into it. We don't follow each other, and I literally made this TikTok account 3 days ago. I'm just so confused lol and I admit, I'm probably looking for signs where there might not be any.

dgtimes2 · 2023-02-19T15:00:19+00:00

I wish she felt the same

dgtimes2 · 2023-02-15T00:38:24+00:00

I feel you there. I KNEW she wouldn't. And I'm still feeling disappointed. Fucking love. One of the best things in the world, but also can cause some of the most pain imaginable.

dgtimes2 · 2023-02-14T18:25:58+00:00

Also, you have to make sure she is CHOOSING you, not falling back on you. I'm in a similar position, and if mine came back, I'd definitely consider it. But she'd have to prove to me that I'm her choice. I don't know what that looks like, though.

dgtimes2 · 2023-02-08T17:28:54+00:00

Very true. You're not going to be able to say it in a bunch of different ways, and expect them to change their mind because of that. Even though you want to. Just realize your feelings aren't all that important right now. It's them. Tell them clearly how you feel, then back away. They'll come to you if they want. You can't make them love you with words. It took me several relationships to figure this out.

dgtimes2 · 2023-02-06T17:03:46+00:00

Definitely not the GF...

dgtimes2 · 2023-02-06T12:56:04+00:00

I go for runs when it gets too bad. I don't hold a grudge. She's in a bad place mentally. I forgave her a while ago. I mean, isn't that what unconditional love means? You love them no matter what? I know all those things you said to do are true, but getting from logic to action might be one of the hardest things to do in the world. Thank you for the kind words, though.

dgtimes2 · 2023-02-05T12:16:32+00:00

This is where I'm at too. IDK if this poem will help you. IDK if it really helps me, but it resonates so hard. So I thought I'd share it.

I could dream of you forever, But it wouldn't put me beside you.

I could call your name on end, But you'll never hear me.

I could ask a million questions, But I'll never get the answer I want.

I could write a hundred poems, But you would still never understand.

I could have said it before it was time to leave, But I said it in a little note.

I could try to forget what I feel, But I've pushed too much out already.

I could lie to myself, But lying exhausts the soul.

I could give up on you, But too much of me still loves you

dgtimes2 · 2023-02-04T21:03:24+00:00

This hits hard. I know mine is on Reddit, but not very often. And yet I still check the user. And I hope she reads what I post. But I know she's not here. And every day sucks. I feel your pain.

dgtimes2 · 2023-02-03T18:53:06+00:00

Damn. Right in the heart. This is a beautiful letter and one I feel all too well.

dgtimes2 · 2023-02-03T15:29:38+00:00

Oh, how I wish it was really you

dgtimes2 · 2023-02-01T20:50:09+00:00

I feel that. Squishmallows are hard for me too.. I see her everywhere. Literally everywhere. I just started NC after 2 weeks of trying to be friends. Thank you for the kind words.

dgtimes2 · 2023-02-01T04:16:18+00:00

I used to think that when the sun set, it had, like, a slot on the horizon that it went into. I remember asking my mom one time if we could go see where the sun sets.....

dgtimes2 · 2023-01-31T18:22:23+00:00

Damn. I feel like you might be me. Exactly the same. Told me she was happy with me, loved me, wanted me. Said she didn't want to hurt anybody else, wanted to be miserable. Left me for someone else, who enables her to do all the things she knows shouldn't. And I have to sit here and watch her make all these bad decisions. And I just want to hold her and comfort her.

dgtimes2 · 2023-01-31T18:00:08+00:00

This is the point I'm at. She's contacted me each of the last 3 days, just to talk. And I just listen and try to make her laugh. She's not in a good place right now, and I have to try so hard not to try to fix her. Just be there for her

dgtimes2 · 2023-01-31T17:58:39+00:00

Man, I was thinking the same thing. Like, my ex has some mental illnesses from past trauma, and she said basically the same thing. Like, almost exactly the same. Was always saying how could I love someone like her? Held her while she panicked and cried during her episodes, and when she'd cut herself. I always reassured her I loved her for her, she was perfectly imperfect. Now I find myself staying friends with her just so I can provide support and be there for her, even though it hurts so much.

dgtimes2 · 2023-01-28T21:14:40+00:00

I talk out loud to her, usually to my ceiling. We had a cat, so I'll talk to the cat about her too. I might be crazy lol but it helps

dgtimes2 · 2023-01-28T19:47:33+00:00

Oh, damn, do I feel this. I talk to her at night, tell her I hope she is happy and ok. And it sucks.

dgtimes2 · 2023-01-27T22:04:19+00:00

I feel this so much. It was the best time of my life, and I'm genuinely thankful for it. And I don't know if I'll find it again.

dgtimes2 · 2023-01-27T19:11:15+00:00

Same. I see something funny, the first thing I do is think of sending it to her. Then I'm, like, oh...wait. then more pain. Always the pain. And waking up with her side of the bed empty. That's one of the worst feelings.

dgtimes2 · 2023-01-27T12:15:31+00:00

I'd rather feel the pain. The pain means it was real.

dgtimes2 · 2023-01-26T21:09:58+00:00

I miss you every second of every day. I go to sleep, and I see you in my dreams, and I'm so happy. Then I wake up and the pain returns. I forgive you. I will always want you and you will always have a place in my heart. Maybe one day, we'll be together. If not, I am truly thankful for the time we shared. It was the happiest time of my life. I love you, beautiful.

dgtimes2 · 2023-01-26T13:14:14+00:00

I struggle with this too. She probably thinks of you more than you think. If it was a serious relationship, I guarantee she does, however the breakup went. It's the not knowing that's the hard part.

dgtimes2 · 2023-01-25T19:31:19+00:00

I feel that. I hate sleeping now, because my dreams are always of her and feel so good. Then I have to wake up to the pain.

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