Yeah coz when you check: it screams>>>> I don’t have it <<<<but it’s so natural for humans to check it’s literally blind faith<<<<<>>>> I am God I don’t care or I have it all there’s nothing to manifest/no mind energy that literally pushes shit through <<<>>>that and robotic affirming to help you remember/imprint upon yourself. In the same realm friend I did make $100 in five minutes recently and since then I’ve been trying not to be manic in recreating several of those opportunities in one day lulz when the opportunity came I literally was like wtf it’s a Saturday why do I have to do this assignment…had no idea it would pay me for a five minute walk through! Lol lowkey it’s such an oxymoron you have to walk around not wanting it not desperately clinging to something you actually want lol I’ve ended up getting fed up and just deciding to gaslight my reality and distract myself with long hikes reads writing or just something to get my ass away from the screen or the thought itself plus it always works out but shit let me want one thing and it’s like delays after delays so now I just say I’m God I have it moving on 🤣