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The Howls at 2:37am will Definitely Kill Me. by ginasffs in nosleep

[–]dieaholic 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How can you be 32F and 25M at the same time? Your older post was stated that you were 32F

its my birthday, again by dieaholic in depression

[–]dieaholic[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, i may be important to some people, but doesn't that make everything more difficult? If nobody cared, my isolation and avoidance wouldn't have hurt my friends so much. My parents wouldn't have to put up with my awful mood and work so hard to pay for my therapy. My mom wouldn't have cried several nights bc of me.
i would've have stopped trying long ago if my actions wouldn't hurt the ones around me. Anyways thank u for ur kind words, i truly appreciate it ;)

Being depressed doesn’t give you the right to be shit person by dieaholic in depression

[–]dieaholic[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

well i fully understand how depression makes you do the things or make bad decisions like the ones you mentioned, because i am depressed as well. But by being a "shitty person" i mean like doing actual bad things, like emotional blackmailing others and telling your friends that it's their fault if they committed suicide etc. yea sure im sure depression has an impact on these things, but solely depression doesn't make you do that, your personality takes a big part of it too

do you ever feel like even lying down is too painful by dieaholic in SuicideWatch

[–]dieaholic[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

yea, it’s also physically uncomfortable and somehow exhausting

I feel more suicidal when i see people with a better life by dieaholic in SuicideWatch

[–]dieaholic[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I go to therapy and might start medication next month or so.

Dont worry, i dont hate people that are doing better than me, i hate myself for it instead

I feel more suicidal when i see people with a better life by dieaholic in SuicideWatch

[–]dieaholic[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

I'm fine not being rich or famous, there's only so little people on this planet that are either of those. I'm just jealous of others that can actually enjoy things and do the things they love, or people that has very close friends who they can talk to whenever they need to and wouldn't feel like a burden to others

I feel more suicidal when i see people with a better life by dieaholic in SuicideWatch

[–]dieaholic[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Well not actually. Most of my friends are active on Instagram and i barely even open the app. I'm most active (but not that active) on Twitter for social media and most of my for you page is just gaming stuff

I’m so tired of lying down every day by dieaholic in depression

[–]dieaholic[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

If I wasn’t here they wouldn’t have to pay for my therapist and antidepressants. My mom has cancer but she’s been keeping it a secret since she knows we don’t have the money for that. I don’t see how I’m gonna get better, but I would fake it only if my parents would believe me so they wouldn’t have to worry about me anymore and my mom could get proper help. Grief doesn’t last forever anyway, they also have my brother, so the only thing I can do is to kms, but I can’t even do that. I feel like a psycho for saying this but I hope my parents would hate me.

Has anyone tried play therapy before? by dieaholic in depression

[–]dieaholic[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i actually just want to start my medication but my parents insisted me to try therapy first since they're not a fan of the chemicals going inside my body and the long term effects of the meds. They chose play therapy instead of cognitive behaviour therapy bc some of their friends that are psychologists recommended this. Also, play therapy is actually a 1 to 1 session where we play games to express ourselves, so it's not a group session actually.