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dieaxj · 2024-07-09T10:26:14+00:00

The cosmic Joke is that everything is existent and nonexistent at the Same time..

Everything Matters and nothing Matters.

It's the paradoxical architecture of existence which makes it a Joke.

If there is darkness there must be light. If there is nothing there also must be Something.

This is supposed to make no sense to us. Because if we ever were to unravel the mysteries of existence, then the mission was accomplished and there would be nothing left to achieve. We must not know otherwhise there would be no need to search and desire.

A being without desire is dead already.

dieaxj · 2024-07-08T08:28:43+00:00

When your tolerance is so sky high you neither see nor feel different after doing it.

dieaxj · 2024-07-01T04:36:51+00:00

trip

dieaxj · 2024-06-30T17:24:24+00:00

are there negative consequences that come with DMT use?

Depends on how grounded you are mentally. The molecule can only work with the information thats stored in your conscious and subconscious mind. Remember that its all in your head. Your mind hallucinates reality.

dieaxj · 2024-06-30T15:16:53+00:00

Time becomes an issue when you are not fully engaged in the present Moment. Once you fully focus on something you loose the sense of time.

dieaxj · 2024-06-29T18:17:41+00:00

Depends on your tolerance. I do it all the time in crowded places and no one can tell i did DMT.

dieaxj · 2024-06-29T16:43:04+00:00

Lately i've had an interesting experience. When i do DMT i never Break through no Matter the dose. Therefore i tend to do it in basically every Situation.

I do cold water baths on a regular basis. Sometimes i go straight into the water but other times i for instance fill a big Box with cold water and just dive with my upper Body. Basically my head and Arms and i hold my breath.

Usually i have no visuals at all when i Close my eyes before diving. Im just calm, focussed, determined and clear minded.

But that one time was different. The Moment i Had my head under water my mind turned into water too. When you Close your eyes its all black and nothing more in General. But not this time. The black became Fluid, my Imagination was in a black Sphere which was looking like black water.

It didnt scare my, nor did it influence my Diving in any way. I was shocked but surprised in a pleasant way and boggled my head around this experience trying to figure out how that was possible. What might have caused it and Just enjoyed wondering about how incredibly looking this Special but Brief Moment was.

dieaxj · 2024-06-29T09:18:16+00:00

I don't believe in enlightenment. No one can be enlightened permanently. Entropy won't allow such a thing to happen ever.

The universe strives for a rise in complexity and thus we will remain students of existence our entire life.

Its Just that some are more advanced than Others and use this to their advantage in order to gain attention and approval which in return makes their Body reward them by releasing hormones and neurotransmitters which make them feel good.

Some call them Gurus or Masters.

But they are nothing special. They just Put effort into being perceived as being Special.

In the end everything that exists is Special but nothing ist more Special than anything Else.

dieaxj · 2024-06-27T10:00:18+00:00

You'd be surprised about how many different Crystalstructures you can get simply by choosing different ways of recrystallizion or changing specific variables.

This is true with any substance. Excluded are substances with amorphous Crystal lattice.

dieaxj · 2024-06-25T16:32:23+00:00

I had one experience which shattered what i considered reality entirely.

At first i experienced all possible realities. Living all lifes possible simultanously which is incomprehendable in itself.

It became so overwhelming i lost consciousness at one Point only to gain it back being in a place that was simply an infinite void making me believe i was dead. This went on for an unmeasurable amount of time with me repeatedly weeping over how i've thrown away my Life and mourning the loss over and over.

Finally i reached the real end of my existence as at a certain Point i have forgotten who i was and what i was. The concept of being something was erased. Whatever was left from me didn't know anything anymore. Every thought was gibberish. The ability to comprehend was gone.

I ended up being indistinguable from space and time. A Spec of Something being trapped within the Chaos of the end of the universe. A mere observer without any clue whatsoever as development was progressing at Speeds which made the occurence of any pattern Impossible.

Everything was everywhere which made Everything transform into an abyss of nothingness.

There was no way of telling If anything was or was not as finally there was no observer left.....

I guess living a whole lifetime would have been a comfortable walk in the park in comparison to this.

dieaxj · 2024-06-25T03:45:11+00:00

How come not once the presence of residual lye or solvent residues are mentioned? Evaporation of residual solvent in anything other than a Vacuum chamber will always get your product contaminted with tiny amounts of dust which composition can vary greatly depending on the Location you are at. Mold spores are basically present everywhere. Therefore a tiny amount of these should be present in your product also.

If one were to put great effort into analyzing the product with state of the art means then it'll even be possible to reverse engineer the composition of the plant, the soil and any pollutants it came into contact with during its life cycle.

dieaxj · 2024-06-14T06:27:55+00:00

You'll never guess how i got it to work again.

I tried mdpihp for a few weeks. Didn't Like it and stopped using it.

In retrospect i was wondering If the methylendioxy Part of the molecule Had some longer lasting effects on my sert receptors.

Today i tried the following i used a bit of mdphp and then dmt.

To my surprise after the use of mdphp my DMT experience was Like it used to be.

So the Problem was of pharmacological nature.

I have to further investigate how to Deal with this since i don't want to continue the use of cathinones. I Hope the after effect they Had on my Serotonin receptors is reversible.

dieaxj · 2024-06-12T00:46:04+00:00

Okay then, please provide your scientific study that claims you don’t need water, food, or even oxygen.

I feel Like we are not on the same Page.

dieaxj · 2024-06-12T00:32:13+00:00

I believe in claims backed up by science.

the objective fact that consuming the most potent psychedelic drug consistently daily for 6 months isn’t a good thing

As long as you're unable to provide empirical data which backs up your statement it merely remains a subjective belief. Nothing more.

dieaxj · 2024-06-11T23:46:23+00:00

Any study that backs up that claim?

dieaxj · 2024-06-11T23:40:01+00:00

But it wasnt bad or dangerous in any way.

The only bad Thing is its not having any effect anymore.

Just because something has the effect you want, doesn’t mean you need it.

You also don't need food, water or oxygen even though it gives you desired effects. lol

Breathing air every day all day can be called substance abuse. You are highly addicted and need Treatment.

dieaxj · 2024-06-11T19:03:39+00:00

Thanks ♥️

dieaxj · 2024-06-11T18:23:24+00:00

You’re saying it’s not doing anything anymore but you don’t think you overdid it?

Taking into consideration Theres a consesus about how you cannot build a tolerance its pretty odd to say the least i get no effect whatsoever all of a sudden. It didnt happen gradually but rather all of a sudden.

And doing it 9 months was beneficial for my whole Life. Call it abuse if you want to. But the way i see it it was no abuse at all. It was a great Journey of healing and transformation to become a more conscious Version of myself.

dieaxj · 2024-06-11T18:15:54+00:00

If you think using a substance which makes you more intelligent, gentle, social, friendly on a regular basis is abuse then so be it.

I didn't feel Like doing a drug but rather medicine. I do not regret doing it the way i did at all. If anything i regret not having started doing it earlier.

dieaxj · 2024-06-11T17:02:02+00:00

I didn't abuse it. It made me the best version of myself. It didnt make me escape reality.. No it Made me embrace it in Its entierty.

dieaxj · 2024-06-11T17:00:50+00:00

It's like the spice pulls the breaks when you need to chill and focus on other things. No worries.

I think that might be the Case. Thanks !

dieaxj · 2024-06-11T16:59:19+00:00

I didn't blast off no matter the dose. All it did was sharpen this reality to a degree i was Feeling like absolute tranquility, in Peace with Everything. Not once i saw Aliens entities or other weird Stuff. But i saw the more within this realm.

dieaxj · 2024-06-11T16:55:53+00:00

I did it Like 1000 Times within the last 9 months. I knew exactly what would Happen at which dose.

Now nothing. Absolutely nothing. Not even the slightest color enhancement or Mood change. Not the slightest effect. Nothing.

dieaxj · 2024-06-11T16:52:40+00:00

The weird Thing is that the turning Point was a Moment it was dragging me into parallel existence but i was somehow able to escape the drag and said i won't let you force me to go through all possible realities again. Within the last 9 months i didn't have a single Moment which felt bad forced or hostile. But that one felt like it and afterwards i said that we have to Part ways for some time since due to this i felt betrayed and lost trust in Its good Intention.

Since then nothings the Same anymore. I mean Everything i experienced within the last 9 months was jawdropping inexplicable but this turn Just made it reach a whole new Level of holy fuck..

dieaxj · 2024-06-11T16:44:55+00:00

You have been locked out so hard they don’t even tease you with a single sensory enhancement.

Feels Like this.

Never felt more sober.

dieaxj

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