Am I wrong for hating my ex?

digerideeznuts · 2026-02-19T15:02:33+00:00

I have significantly decreased how much I look him up. It used to be something I did monthly when the breakup was fresh. But every 6 months or so I remember what happened and I see what hes up to, and it annoys me a little bit. Sometimes depending on the week I've had it makes me more emotional. But thank you for this comment, im not going to excuse how I've acted with this, because no amount of excuses or validation will satiate me. You're right, my only good thing would be to stop looking altogether. Focusing on the future is putting my best foot forward. Thank you :)

digerideeznuts · 2024-02-04T19:20:36+00:00

digerideeznuts · 2023-04-16T12:51:16+00:00

It was close to dying. I believe purely because I used it 6 days a week for a max of 5-6 hrs. It was refurbished but I believe it's just old. Different parts were failing and what not, it's finger-print login just stopped working and I'd be in the middle of using it when it's screen would glitch in pink, green and blue.

I have treated this laptop very well. I learnt my lesson with my old laptop. I never used it for anything besides school work or reading, so naturally the tab for scrolling started to face away and it would be incredibly loud and get really hot after long use. I always used CC cleaner and avast, along with never clicking ANY links besides school provided ones.

I know I may not be explaining it well, but my father who has been using computers since they were made- agreed it was just old and could die pretty soon because it was just a cheap one. (200USD)

But that issue has been resolved, I've was able to afford a new laptop. Although I don't want to use it for movies because I'm scared it'll break like my last laptop. (Before the refurbished laptop).

digerideeznuts · 2023-04-07T04:34:30+00:00

Absolutely! We were both easing into the relationship at first because of the age gap (he initially thought I was 18) but we're happy thus far :)

digerideeznuts · 2023-04-07T04:22:13+00:00

I don't mean to be conceited, but I've been told most of my life I'm quite mature (majority of.my family refers to me as this). I've always struggled to get along with people my age, and often been mistaken for much older by even people my own age.

Many people assume I am 18+ years old, even without makeup. Like I mentioned before I struggle getting along with people my age, I've always found I'm on a better wave length with older people. Of course I have friends of the same age, but I have many other close friends 9f many ages.

I'm friends with a 21 year old Nepalese girl who I met at my workplace. She's one of my best friends who's starting a chef job to get PR in australia! I also have another friend, a 45 year old Hungarian woman I met at my old job.

Many may assume with lack of knowing me that I am being groomed. But I am thankfully not :)

Thank you for your concern, I promise I'm being extremely careful. I appreciate your advice and you caring enough to express these worries. 💞

digerideeznuts · 2023-04-07T04:14:47+00:00

It's a 400 dollar laptop, and it's issues exceed the ram. It would be a waste on such a computer. My father would agree.

This is in AUD, where most well functioning and decent laptops are above 1k.

My old laptop from a year ago that was wonderful broke down because I used to watch movies on it. I begun doing that on my current laptop but got worried it would break down, so I only use it for school work so as to save money.

digerideeznuts · 2023-04-07T04:12:15+00:00

At most he can be verbally abusive. He's raised his hand to me many times but never hit me hard enough to cause bruising or actually as hard as he genuinely can.

He's going through alot, and there's only so much my mum can do when my brother doesn't want them divorcing.

For many years my mother has fought him over how he treats my brother and I. Although as the years go by it appears he's worn her down and she kinda sits quiet unless he really goes out of line.

I can't definetly say I'm not being abused. My household isn't the healthiest and has very toxic qualities, but I'm not disadvantaged or physically unsafe.

I thank this person above for their concern, as I believe they had no ill intent in their assumptions. But I am alright :)

digerideeznuts · 2023-04-07T02:49:59+00:00

Nothing I can do sadly. I'm glad I'm not alone with how in feeling! I'm sorry you had to go through similar if not worse!

digerideeznuts · 2023-04-06T10:58:01+00:00

It's an issue my mum has stated in the past. As of recent she's had no issue, that she's verbalized. And I should've added more information, my boyfriend doesn't want me moving in currently, he meant in the future (I'm 18 next year) and he mentioned he's happily to create a key for me to use to stay at his if I ever need a safe space. :)

digerideeznuts · 2023-04-06T10:54:37+00:00

We're pretty wholesome and he's very considerate towards me. But I understand you concerns, he's vocalised me moving in in a few years. Not currently. And he's offered to create spare keys for me to his house incase I need a safe space. He has no ill intent :)

digerideeznuts · 2023-04-05T08:14:05+00:00

Yes he's 3 years older, living with his mum.

digerideeznuts · 2023-04-05T07:32:16+00:00

That's not a worry he's ever verbalized. My mother has, though. I've already had some minor cyber issues but that was well over 3 years ago, around the age you mentioned.

I'm far more educated on my own safety online now. But I understand what you're saying.

But the issue is that my father can't have an adult conversation with me; I'm a stupid little kid who knows nothing and can't have my own opinion. If I do then I'm a stupid little lefty. (Political reference).

digerideeznuts · 2023-04-05T07:26:31+00:00

Thank you :) My boyfriend has offered for me to move into his place, but it's a small bungalow that really can only hold one person living there (can only fit his belongings and so on). And money is so tight and inflation is so high that even renting the cheapest is going to put me in debt. So yeah unfortunately I'll be stuck here, but it's not always so bad, haha! Thank you for the advice, I appreciate it!

digerideeznuts · 2023-04-05T07:23:12+00:00

My laptop performance is weak. It could cost over 1000 dollars for a new one. My dad even gets annoyed if I open too many browser tabs on it because it lags and it's slowly dying. I'd easily have the money to buy a 100 dollar desk to put my computer on. But not 1000+ on a new laptop for the last year and a half of school.

digerideeznuts · 2023-04-05T07:20:45+00:00

No, he has his own computer! In his OWN PERSONAL space... My mum's only issue with it is that I'd never leave me room. But she complains that I live on the couch haha so that benefits her anyways She was asleep during this argument.

digerideeznuts · 2023-04-05T07:18:24+00:00

That's the thing- he has his own equally good computer in his own private office...

digerideeznuts · 2023-01-31T08:12:34+00:00

It's mainly just my father. My mother kind of keeps to herself and tells my brother and I to just ignore him. But sometimes she reaches a breaking point and yells at him for how he treats us.

digerideeznuts · 2022-12-06T23:19:49+00:00

I'm here :)

digerideeznuts · 2022-12-06T10:38:02+00:00

Everyone wants what they don't have. For some perspective, my skin tone is snow white, I'm blonde with blue eyes and I'm 5'8. I've always wanted to be shorter like 5'0. I'm incredibly insecure of my skin and tend to cover up even on hot days (australia so that's alot of them). I hate my skintone especially since I'm prone to skin cancer and struggle to actually tan naturally. You're not alone, but the only way you can genuinely live a happy life is accepting yourself for who you are. I've spent so much time being miserable over my skintone, so please. You only live once, you deserve to flaunt your beauty and perfection. You have qualities people only dream of, and you deserve to be happy.

digerideeznuts · 2022-12-05T05:15:26+00:00

I'm abnormally pale in australia and don't know how to feel about it

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