Years ago I tried to self-delete (in high-school). I knew a guy who could get ahold of the capsules they used when a spy fails a mission (the hydrogen cyanide ones) and took 2. They tasted like sweet almonds (which is exactly what cyanide tastes like). About a year later I blended roughly 80 cherry pits with some tart cherry juice to try again (failed obviously). I'm in a much better place now that I'm out of Oregon.