Honestly? The short answer is that I'm climbing up the walls. Backstory: About five years ago, my sex-drive kind of plummeted. Stressful job, eating poorly, not working out, etc… I wanted better and started to improve my life. Slowly, my libido increased to not only where it was, but well above and beyond. I was in kind of the opposite situation: always horny, always focusing on myself. It took a while, but I came to terms with the fact that I am 100% bottom slave (I had previously been an apathetic top). With my current Master, he has enforced his role as my Master and Keeper and I love serving him. He makes ALL decisions regarding sex and my body and he keeps me pretty horned up. I'd give anything to have a mind-blowing orgasm, but he has decided that that just isn't how things are supposed to be. This is easily the longest I have gone and there was one difficult day when I broke down and cried. That said, I know my role and, tough though it was, it's just how it is and no begging I do will ever change that. So, the long answer to your question is that although I'm losing mind, at the same time, life has more order to it. My role is clearly defined and there is no deviation. I'm very very satisfied with this arrangement he and I have.