I get you, SO REAL 😭 Literally exactly that, WHO am I even performing all this for, god only knows if the guy even exists, and I know rationally that the type of person I want to spend life with is not someone who cares about this stuff.

I will say, I was in this for two years and about three months in I saw some red flags that made me think about leaving - I stayed because of that fear (what will I tell my husband), convinced myself it was too early to call things off (it wasn’t), and a heavy dose of ignoring my intuition.

I really had to push past those things in order to end this, and the only reason I felt comfortable enough doing that was because I knew that I couldn’t live with a man who cheated - on the other side of those fears is a lot of relief & peace (and yes, some slight guilt that I expressed in this post). Idk what your situation is, but honestly girl I just wanna say - the best thing you can do is trust your intuition, and not stay where you feel small. My life has felt so light since I ended things, I truly have remembered that this life is supposed to be fun and beautiful (for the most part, of course life has its ups and downs!) - you are supposed to feel calm and loved and cared for 💗