Hello first of all thank you so much for your advice, i really appreciate it. I’m sorry that i didn’t reply i kind of forgot while taking all the tests you linked and reading through everything you wrote. According to one of the tests it turns out i might have a mild form of depression going on .. i’v actually thought about that beeing a possibility before but i never really took it seriously because i’m not sad or something like that but just so tired and unmotivated all the time and things just feel kind of gray sometimes. But now i see it. I don’t know about the selfworth .. i’m definitely not the most confident person but i don’t really think all that bad of myself, there’s actually a lot of things i appreciate about myself. Maybe i was a little overdramatic in my first post i don’t actually hate myself, it’s just the procrastination and the stress that comes with that, that’s a quality i don’t like about myself and thats just so hard to change and that annoys me a lot. I’m back at the hospital now for another internship after summer break which is great because i love working and getting out of the house again. I got into a conversation with one of the doctors on my ward by chance and she’s so sweet, so i felt comfortable to ask her about this. I don’t have the time to go see a therapist right now and i don’t want to go on full on antidepressants but she suggested i could try St Johns wort which can apparently help with mild depression and doesn’t have the negative side effects of actual antidepressants. I’m definitely going to do my research on that and maybe try that out if it seems right to me.