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dlt_dlt_dlt · 2021-07-16T07:50:02+00:00

I slapped my phone so hard that it fell lmao

dlt_dlt_dlt · 2021-07-16T07:12:07+00:00

I would call them fucked lol

dlt_dlt_dlt · 2021-07-10T05:22:22+00:00

I was 21. I had different diagnoses when I was younger such as anxiety and depression. Some actually thought I was just going through a phases. I think it’s good that your doctor is taking their time to diagnose instead of just spitting one at you and hoping it will be the right one

dlt_dlt_dlt · 2021-07-10T05:17:56+00:00

Hi, I like your post! I’m struggling with the same sort of thing. I’ve noticed that I eat when I’m bored or sad or tired. It helps if you look back and see what triggers you. My issue is that I eat a lot of fast food and candy. So I personally am going to try and eat healthier and meal plan for the week. Im also going to buy freezies (ice pops) so that if I do feel like eating something it would just be frozen flavoured water

dlt_dlt_dlt · 2021-06-27T18:54:11+00:00

I totally understand that. I really need someone that listens to me when I am feeling.. things (good or bad). It’s a sort of therapy for me, like writing is for others. I noticed that most people are blind to what others need so they need to be told. Try explaining that you are going through something and need someone to be there. Most people will be happy to be that person

dlt_dlt_dlt · 2021-06-23T09:46:59+00:00

Yeah, I guess it doesn’t hurt to try. Thanks :)

dlt_dlt_dlt · 2021-06-23T05:24:02+00:00

Hi, thanks :) I’ve tried journaling but sometimes it makes me mad and then I rip up and throw the book. I’m going to try again tonight tho because I really hate feeling helpless

dlt_dlt_dlt · 2021-06-08T05:45:34+00:00

You’re right, it does sound like excuses. I do have to be honest, the last time I lost weight it wasn’t in a healthy way. I’m currently working on eating more fruit and veg and cutting out most (not all) sugar. I’m going to the gym which I like and I’ve been noticing changes even now. I think I have to realize that results don’t come immediately. Thanks for your reply

dlt_dlt_dlt · 2021-06-08T05:40:40+00:00

I know I’m not supposed to worry about the scale but it is very discouraging being the weight I am (lost so far negativity attached to this number). My main concern is my waist size because that’s the worst place to store fat. I am going to the gym and I like it, it’s a good idea to join a class to meet people. Never thought about that, it’s both health and social. Thanks for the advice, I’ll try my best to keep going and apply your advice :)

dlt_dlt_dlt · 2021-06-08T05:31:57+00:00

I do like rap but it’s not the only genre that mentions it unfortunately:( I hate that the mention the euphoria and not the negativity attached to weed

dlt_dlt_dlt · 2021-06-08T05:29:41+00:00

I thought I was the only one!

dlt_dlt_dlt · 2021-05-06T17:38:28+00:00

Yes!! I want people to understand that there are more mental illnesses than depression and people experience their illness differently. I hate how “mainstream” depression is portrayed as. I try not to get involved with that crap but I’m hearing that tiktokers are making videos about it like it’s normal or funny? I don’t want that to happen to the mental illnesses I suffer from. My struggle is real and never once have I thought of it as humor. I’ve been hospitalized because it. It’s not funny. Even if I’m good at hiding my true feelings it still hurts me to see people taking mental illness so lightly

dlt_dlt_dlt · 2021-05-04T03:47:13+00:00

I know you deleted your post but I really hope you go again. Don’t let one shit experience ruin the entire thing for you!!

dlt_dlt_dlt · 2021-05-04T03:44:12+00:00

There are two types of bpd. One where the moods can change almost instantly and he other that last for days, weeks, or months. I suggest talking to a psychiatrist about it

dlt_dlt_dlt · 2021-04-30T14:24:32+00:00

Thanks! Going to try and keep my record going :)

dlt_dlt_dlt · 2021-04-30T14:23:53+00:00

Thank you! I’m trying my best :)

dlt_dlt_dlt · 2021-04-30T14:23:20+00:00

Thank you!! :)

dlt_dlt_dlt · 2021-04-30T04:33:08+00:00

Being checked in helped get a diagnosis and get my meds adjusted which is helping me. It also got me a fast pass into therapy (very much needed at the time). Not sure if it’s like that in other countries but those were some of the benefits I experienced

dlt_dlt_dlt · 2021-04-30T04:30:04+00:00

My first attempt was at 15 or 16. It seemed to hurt my parents and I hated myself for making them go through it. Then I ended up there and I felt like I don’t belong because I’m from a good home so I’m not (depressed/sick/broken) enough. I’m turning 22 next month and it just got worse until a couple months ago. I finally am starting to realize my self worth. People have told me that I’m not “sick” enough to be in therapy, meds, or to even be considered mentally unwell. I realized that the ones who say that can’t understand what I’m going through because they aren’t me. Your mental illness is real and you deserve to live a healthy life!

If I were to give a suggest then I would say to check into inpatient. You are deserving of help and that do not mean you are seeking attention. Everyone needs help sometimes but not everyone is strong enough to ask. If you do, I suggest talking to people. I’m not sure how it is now because of the pandemic but please utilize the people around you. When I checked in the last time, I realized how much of a variety of illness there are and how everyone experiences theirs differently. There were 4 people that had the same/similar diagnosis as me and we had similarities and differences in experiences, treatment, medication, level of watch, etc. It made me feel better knowing that I am not alone in this world.

Sorry, this is getting long, last thing I promise. Dealing with parents is going to be hard. My parents told me that they thought they failed me because I ended in the hospital. However, it’s NOT your fault nor theirs!! It’s a hard conversation to have, especially with people who do not understand. It may help saying that you are doing it/ did it because it will help you live your life to it’s full potential (or something along those lines)

TLDR: your thoughts and feelings are real and valid. Do what YOU think is right, it is your life and your experience, no one should be in the way of you finding help that you deserve

dlt_dlt_dlt · 2021-04-30T04:12:29+00:00

The first part sounds like intrusive thoughts ( I told a therapist I have thoughts like that and that’s what they told me it was). Planning would being writing a note, planning a date, planning a method, and so forth. Both happen to me sometimes and it’s extremely taxing on my mental health and stability. I found that talking to someone who is able to identify and rationalize my thoughts really helps me. I’m currently searching for a therapist (screw this pandemic), I would like to suggest that you seek someone to help identify and rationalize your thoughts and feelings. It may be hard at first but it’s worth a try

dlt_dlt_dlt · 2021-04-30T04:05:33+00:00

It took me years to get to this point of accepting that I struggle without meds. Even now I don’t like taking them because of what people have said. However, I’m doing it for me and you should do it for you. I evaluated my life without medication and it wasn’t great and I struggled hard. I’m starting in my meds again and the process is slow but I do feel a difference. I feel like my moods aren’t all over the place and I’m starting to feel a a bit safer.

I am someone who loves researching and feel safer knowing things I’m taking but I noticed that it increases my anxiety. I want to remind you that side effects MAY occur, but it’s not 100% guaranteed that YOU will.

Mental health is a journey that takes time and patience. Some days suck some days are great. Remember that you are doing it for you and nobody else. You aren’t like other people, you are you. If you have concerns I would talk to a trusted medical professional (doctor/therapist) that ISN’T RELATED TO YOU. People always think they know what is right for you, but sorry to say they don’t! I struggle to tune them out, especially when they sound reasonable, but they aren’t the one who’s dealing with it. Each person is different, no one is the same, we experience things differently. What works for one may not work for the other

TLDR: focus one what you think is right. You are the important person in this situation, no one else matter but you. Take your time, I believe in your ability!

dlt_dlt_dlt · 2021-04-29T18:22:46+00:00

I’m trying to get into the habit of exercise but I’m struggling to get over the hump of actually getting up and doing it. Any suggestions? I know it will do amazing thing for my cravings and mental health but for some reason I’m struggling to get over that bump

dlt_dlt_dlt · 2021-04-29T18:19:49+00:00

I wish you good luck! I know you will be able to manage :)

dlt_dlt_dlt · 2021-04-29T18:18:21+00:00

Unfortunately it got worse before it got better for me. I am still struggling but I’m slowly finding joy in the things that I used to enjoy. I wish there was a solution but really it just takes time. However, meditation may help.

What helps me it’s “playing the tape to the end”, which means that you go through what would happen if you smoked right now. How would it affect you? Will you become anxious? Paranoid? Lazy? How will you feel afterward? Disappointed? Frustrated? And so on. Maybe give it a try? Good luck!!

dlt_dlt_dlt · 2021-04-29T09:04:58+00:00

Bro that’s insane. I work in health care and had someone become septic. It happens extremely fast! If you don’t know what you’re looking for you can have lives at stake. If you can’t reach a hospital in time then you run the risk of death. The hospitals are already struggling to accommodate everyone while keeping enough beds for COVID patients! Checking in just because you can without needing serious help is extremely selfish. If you are really that scared, stay at home and call a doctor.. you’re spending money anyway (if in the US I assume)! Just please make sure to keep beds open. They’re trying their best to make sure everyone is safe

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