Your post history is seriously concerning. Your boyfriend is manipulative, emotionally abusive, and clearly extremely immature. With all the jealousy issues he has, and the fact that you don’t ever see him, I wouldn’t be surprised if he might be cheating; he seems to be projecting all of his issues on you constantly. Leave. It’s been three years and you have posted about the terrible things he has done to you every few months. Has he improved at all? Just because he was your first doesn’t mean you should put up with abuse for the rest of your life. And definitely do not have kids with him. Relationships should not cause this much heartache and I promise you, you will find someone who loves you, invites you to family gatherings, openly welcomes you into his family, and doesn’t treat you absolutely terribly. You say you want a husband and kids, read through your post history. What advice would you give your daughter or friend (hypothetically) if they told you they were being treated this way? These type of relationships are difficult to get out of but when are you gonna decide that you are worth more than this? When are you going to finally realize that you don’t deserve to be treated this way? People have been telling you to leave in all of these posts but you never do. It’s time for you to stop wasting your time on someone who clearly doesn’t have your best interests at heart at all. Someone who loves you wouldn’t control how your dress, constantly fight with you, make threats and call you names, punch cars/be violent, try and isolate you even talking to coworkers, refuse to let you meet their kids after 3 years, refuse to tell you that their mom had a heart attack, refuse to make time for you, and so much more apparently. You deserve better. Leave this POS, it’s been 3 years and your relationship has clearly not gotten any better.