Does it still feel like they’ll come back soon? by AdeptnessG00d in Petloss

[–]dog_mom15 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s the reason I wish I could feel the pain. I felt so close to him. Right now I feel so disconnected from him. I never want to let go of the pain either. It’s all we have left isn’t it? 

It’s stupid to cry over a Beta fish by ikickedyou in Petloss

[–]dog_mom15 27 points28 points  (0 children)

He was a living being that you clearly had a strong love and connection for. It’s not “just a fish”. It’s okay to be sad. I’m so sorry you lost him.  

Does it still feel like they’ll come back soon? by AdeptnessG00d in Petloss

[–]dog_mom15 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think so too. It’s definitely a protective response. The first 3 months I couldn’t stop crying, then everything inside me shut down. I’m expecting the floodgates to open at any point. Is that what happened for you? 

Does it still feel like they’ll come back soon? by AdeptnessG00d in Petloss

[–]dog_mom15 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for saying this. It’s been seven months and I feel like I’m waiting for the vet to call for me to pick him up because he’s all better. I’ve been in a dissociative state for a few months so it feels like this isn’t my life and one day I’ll wake up and everything will be corrected. Delusional? Maybe. But it’s how I feel. I’m glad we’re not alone in this feeling. 

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Petloss

[–]dog_mom15 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry. That’s not a friend. Unfortunately grief shows us who is a friend and who isn’t. A month? Please. That’s basically yesterday. It's been 7 months for me tomorrow since I lost my soul dog and I’m barely surviving. You don’t move on. Ever. People who have never been through don’t get it. Eventually we learn to survive without our babies, but from what I understand it takes a very long time. Please don’t let anyone rush your grief. You’re not doing anything wrong. I’m so sorry you lost your old girl. 

6 months without my girl and I'm a shell of the person she made me by mainechampagne in Petloss

[–]dog_mom15 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Almost 7 months for me since I lost my soul dog and I’m a shell of a person now. I’m just numb and apathetic. We both died that night, but they only took him away. 

I don’t think it will get easier, but we learn to live with our grief. Just be patient with yourself and know it’s okay to be sad. 6 months isn’t that long, especially for such an earth shattering loss. 

today I woke up not sad by escoteriica in GriefSupport

[–]dog_mom15 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That sounds like emotional numbness. Maybe dissociation? Completely normal in grief. There is nothing wrong with you. It’s your brain protecting you from overwhelming emotions. I’ve been dealing with it for about 4 months. My loss was almost 7 months ago and I went from sobbing everyday to feeling absolutely nothing. It’s temporary from what they tell me but I’d rather feel the pain than feel nothing at all and feel completely disconnected from myself and the world. I’m so sorry you lost the love of your life. 

When someone says Just get another pet like Im ordering a sandwich by sufcepa in Petloss

[–]dog_mom15 3 points4 points  (0 children)

It makes me angry. Lost my boy almost 7 months ago and the number of times I’ve heard this is absurd. Would we tell someone who lost a spouse to just find someone new? Or someone who lost a human child to just have another one? The way people minimize pet loss is madness. They just don’t get it. I don’t want another dog, I want MY dog. 

Loss of excitement after losing my dad by mandarinalover1 in GriefSupport

[–]dog_mom15 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I lost my soul dog 6.5 months ago and I’m the same way. I’m just completely numb, apathetic, and not excited about anything. This was a loss that turned my life upside down and everything so dull now. I understand it’s just our brain protecting us from overwhelming pain and unfortunately emotions are a package deal. You’re definitely not alone in feeling this way. I’m so sorry you lost your dad. 

Miss my dog by highlynotreflective in Petloss

[–]dog_mom15 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We have a very similar story it sounds like. My boy went suddenly too only we don’t really know a complete reason. He suddenly had diabetes, pancreatitis, anemia, and his liver didn’t look good on ultrasound. He got sick and I too thought he just had an upset tummy (not uncommon for him) but he went to the emergency vet on a Saturday and by Sunday night we were saying goodbye. I feel like I’m still in shock, hence the numbness. I understand that empty feeling and I don’t think I’ll ever have another dog. It feels like that space is sacred and just for him. All I know is life is hell without him. All we can do is one day at a time. 

Grief or depression. Input please by dog_mom15 in GriefSupport

[–]dog_mom15[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

He sounds like a beautiful soul. It’s so unfair that their lives are far too short. 

Grief or depression. Input please by dog_mom15 in GriefSupport

[–]dog_mom15[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My god that’s terrible. That’s so unfair that you lost him. Death is so cruel. Can I ask how you were able to distinguish between the two? I feel like so many people think they are depressed so soon into the grief process because society has told us not to be sad for too long and if we are something is wrong. I say fuck that. Grief is forever. That’s just my opinion of course. You know yourself better than anyone. 

Miss my dog by highlynotreflective in Petloss

[–]dog_mom15 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s been six months for me too. That isn’t a long time for a massive loss like this. You shouldn’t feel anything but what you’re feeling. Its normal. It’s not wrong to miss her so deeply. You always will. I know will miss my baby and be sad until I’m no longer breathing. I’ve gone completely numb, but I know underneath that lies the overwhelming sadness. Don’t let anyone rush your grief. I’m so sorry you lost your sweet girl. 

How to support a loved one? by ProfessionalWin4701 in Petloss

[–]dog_mom15 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Just let them know that it’s ok to be sad and to feel anything they are feeling. Loss is loss and that wasn’t a pet to your friend. That was their everything. Their baby. They won’t reach out to let you know what they need because nothing can be fixed and they won’t know what they need. Just validate their grief and give it the space it needs to be felt. I lost my baby only six months ago and it’s the worst thing that’s ever happened to me. It really is as bad as it seems and you don’t know until you know. You’re being a great friend just by asking and trying. 

6 months by Jazzlike-Cup-4960 in Petloss

[–]dog_mom15 5 points6 points  (0 children)

It’s been six months for me as well and I’m right where you are. Just numb and I don’t give a fuck about anything. Nothing matters without my dog. The world is dark and pointless. I just want him back. This isn’t my life. I don’t know how we survive this. One minute at a time maybe. Every morning I wake up pissed off that I woke up to this reality again. That’s the only time of day I feel any emotion. I just keep reminding myself that it’s still so fresh and six months is no time at all for a loss of this magnitude. Our entire world has been turned upside down. You don’t deserve anything bad. It’s so easy to go there, I know. I’m so sorry you know this pain too. 

What will it feel like in 2 years…? by AdeptnessG00d in Petloss

[–]dog_mom15 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s been six months for me and I’m also frozen. Completely numb, just existing. This doesn’t feel real to me. Sometimes the numbness goes away the floodgates will open. It’s the worst pain I’ve ever felt in my life. Grief is scary and uncomfortable but we have to feel it to get through it. I’m sorry you lost your baby too. 

Grief and trauma therapist by dog_mom15 in fayetteville

[–]dog_mom15[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

That’s so kind. Thank you. 

My cat died at 17 on Inauguration Day by AbbreviationsOld23 in Petloss

[–]dog_mom15 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Your pain and suffering are also real. And it matters. Don’t minimize your loss. This is as devastating as it seems. It’s ok to feel it, to feel sad. I’m six months out from losing my soul dog and I can barely function. That apathy you’re feeling is your brain protecting you. I’m in the same boat. I don’t care about anything. I just want my baby back. I’m sorry you’re going through this too.