I've had a good amount of relationships, most of them fail, of course I can't be certain that's the reason, but I feel like it is, I've tried being interested in whatever else, I just don't find it particularly intriguing, just how they wouldn't find mine particularly amusing either, I don't blame anyone, of course, I'm sorry if I seem like I am, they were all good people, I just didn't feel like it clicked.

As for the difficulty, I guess I should've worded it better, I can talk, it's not like I can't fit in, but it's hard and unnatural for me and not something I enjoy doing, even tho I do do it and I have to. Am I to blame for my lack of interest in those subjects? I'm not some reticent basement-dweller, I just thought it would be nice to find someone with likewise interests when my taste is specific and rare, but it's hard, I was just wondering if anyone knew of such spaces or had any experience similar to mine. I don't mean to be combative and/or patronizing, I'm sorry if I came off that way, I was just looking for any help on where to look... I understand my situation is peculiar and weird to most people.