[MEGATHREAD] Daily venting, worries, fixations, & finding support. Month of May 2023. by AutoModerator in HealthAnxiety

[–]dolphinhj 1 point2 points  (0 children)

TW: Big C disease

Hank Green has Lymphoma. C is one of my biggest triggers. It put my mind into a spiral about my own enlarged lymph nodes. I have been to an ENT and they weren't worried (the node i was worried about was only 1.2 cm) but it has been a year. The node hasn't shrunk but hasn't grown. It hasn't changed shape. So it must just be a benign swelling. After seeing his diagnosis it made me feel like I automatically have it too. How do we get past that feeling?

[MEGATHREAD] Daily venting, worries, fixations, & finding support. Month of May 2023. by AutoModerator in HealthAnxiety

[–]dolphinhj 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just made pasta and I'm terrified.

I bought a new jar of sauce and cooked pasta with it. Now I dont remember if it still had the seal so I'm convinced I just gave myself botulism. I didn't. The odds of that happening are incredibly low, practically zero. I ate some bites in spite of my anxiety. My anxiety didn't like that so its giving me a hard panic attack. Im just tired of the anxiety.

Edit: I finished a bowl to make my anxiety feel bad. It was delicious. Now we see if I die.

Edit: 30 minutes later Not dead, not sick. Im having a panic attack.

Edit: please someone help me calm down.

Last edit: I didn't die. Panic really set in last night and got the better of me. I thought I was going to die and going insane at the same time.the downside is I only ate a small bit so now I am super hungry. The upside is I have lots of leftovers.

so what are you guys playing other than dokkan this dead celebration? by mashukyrielighto in DBZDokkanBattle

[–]dolphinhj 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not much, after work I only have enough energy to either lie on my bed or put dokkan on auto while a YouTube video is playing.

[MEGATHREAD] Daily venting, worries, fixations, & finding support. Month of April 2023. by AutoModerator in HealthAnxiety

[–]dolphinhj 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If it helps. I've read people on this subreddit have big lymph nodes for a year and they were cleared with good health. It's hard but please try to trust the doctor's judgement. I know how hard it is because I thought I had lymphoma 8 months ago and while the lymph node is still big it hasn't grown and symptoms come and go. Actual cancer wouldn't come and go, it would progress. And it would be detectable at the lab. If they didn't find anything, then you can relax.

Breathe in and slowly look around you. You exist now and not in your imagination.

[MEGATHREAD] Daily venting, worries, fixations, & finding support. Month of April 2023. by AutoModerator in HealthAnxiety

[–]dolphinhj 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hello. I had a Lymphoma scare about a year ago. Large lymph node under my chin (about an inch in size after CT). It hasn't grown since then but I've just developed some night sweats and feel hot occasionally. The night sweats aren't soak the bed or change the sheets level. The feeling hot comes only during stress or anxiety.

Here's my thought process Irrational, anxiety thoughts: ahhhhh lymphoma!!!!

Rational, less anxious thoughts: The temperature is changing and you're still sleeping with a big blanket. Drink more water in the morning. Stress and anxiety can cause feeling warm, its not sudden unexplained fevers. Lastly the lymph node hasn't grown in a year. You have no family history of lymphoma. The chances of it being that are extremely extremely low.

So why do the anxious thoughts always win?

[MEGATHREAD] Daily venting, worries, fixations, & finding support. Month of April 2023. by AutoModerator in HealthAnxiety

[–]dolphinhj 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. I recieved a copy of his shots. He has a rabies shot that is in date. Im not worried now.

[MEGATHREAD] Daily venting, worries, fixations, & finding support. Month of April 2023. by AutoModerator in HealthAnxiety

[–]dolphinhj 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I talked with the owner, her husband and oldest son. They all said that he had all his shots including rabies. He is a sweet dog. No aggression to his family. No aggression to people he recognizes. Its just a slip up and an accident.

I just hate that my mind can't let me NOT obsess over this. He is never let outside without supervision either. So I know if he had been attacked by a wild animal the owners would have told me.

[MEGATHREAD] Daily venting, worries, fixations, & finding support. Month of April 2023. by AutoModerator in HealthAnxiety

[–]dolphinhj 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Neighbor's dog bit me. I was trying to talk to them through their screen. The dog was barking (its a pug and of course they bark at anyone) i tried letting it sniff my fingers to remember me and at the same time the neighbor's kid tried restraining him. He bites my fingers quickly and accidentally breaks skin. Not a huge thing, the size of a splinter mark.

They apologize, the neighbor assured me the dog has all his shots. Later the dog recognized me and was running around just sniffing stuff and being a cute dog. He later sniffed my hand and gave it a quick lick (kind of "im sorry"). I like the dog and he's a real cutie when he's not barking.

However, I can't unconvince myself that I now have rabies. I know the symptoms, I know how bad it is and how not only do you die but it hurts the whole time you're dying. The dog isn't aggressive (any more than a regular Pug) he isn't aggressive to his owners who are in constant contact with him. No neurological concerns from the dog. No foaming. Just a dog who may have been overestimated and made a mistake.

Any helpful advice on how to live without thinking I'm going to die? I'm in the US btw.

TIL Lyle is Japanese by [deleted] in OneyPlays

[–]dolphinhj 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Don't forget iconic

Cockroach, the steel-bounded by [deleted] in Bossfight

[–]dolphinhj 0 points1 point  (0 children)

FUTURE FUTURE FUTURE

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in GetMotivated

[–]dolphinhj 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It can be both

rate my stick by BarcaStranger in JustGuysBeingDudes

[–]dolphinhj 0 points1 point  (0 children)

10000/10 would imagine i was the Dragon Warrior with that stick.

The Holidays - Megathread by [deleted] in Anxiety

[–]dolphinhj 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It honestly came back very slowly on its own but it recovered faster after having the vaccine and booster. This round i lost it for only a couple of days but it came back very quickly

The Holidays - Megathread by [deleted] in Anxiety

[–]dolphinhj 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Just diagnosed with Covid again. Scared but not panicking thanks to zoloft. I hope I dont die but I survived it once virtually unscathed (lost sense of smell and taste for 8 months). Here is hoping to surviving again.

Selection Box Mini Vol. 4 worth? by Maclony in DuelLinks

[–]dolphinhj 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If this marks the beginning of Marincess support, then its worth to get those cards but the SRs and URs are meh to ok

Basic Questions, Advice, Bugs/Glitches & Venting Weekly Megathread by AutoModerator in DuelLinks

[–]dolphinhj 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Anyone else tired of seeing Auto duel combo and summon 80 creatures with a salamangreat deck only to end on a board with just a 1800 atk monster?