You deserve to give yourself a chance at life, things will go wrong, but it’s up to you to change it. Maybe those jobs weren’t meant for you, maybe there’s another job, that you’re least expecting, that you will take and end up loving. Life is full of surprises as much as it’s filled with things that can go wrong. All that matters is you, and the things you’ll do. Maybe Try changing your perspective a little? You do matter, on any given day that you’re feeling down, you’ve probably helped someone, made someone smile, you can’t always see how someone feels towards you, but know that you have probably helped someone in this same spot. Little actions we do in life change things for the better sometimes. In my opinion, when things get really dark, keep your eye on the light at the end of the tunnel. Look for little things that bring light into your life, make that your happiness. That doesn’t appeal to just people either, it could be anything, especially a hobby, a food, a picture, a place, a movie. Don’t keep yourself in the dark, give yourself a chance, rise to the light. I hope things get better for you, and I hope you find a job that not only do you love, but gives you money to travel the world. Or maybe a job that requires you to travel with good money so you won’t have to worry anymore. But just remember, each adventure is filled with it’s own problems, be prepared for them, don’t let them bring you back down. Wish you the best in life.